《刷新》“Refresh”歌詞譯文

JESSICA: (spoken)

嗨，我的名字叫杰西卡，我是個(gè)網(wǎng)癮者

Hi, my name is Jessica and I'm an addict

OTHERS: (spoken)

嗨，杰西卡

Hi Jessica

JESSICA: (spoken)

“網(wǎng)癮者”。上帝啊，這個(gè)詞還是很難出口

“Addict.” God that's still so hard to say.

這周末呢，我有一點(diǎn)故態(tài)復(fù)萌了

So I had a bit of a relapse this weekend.

我之前控制得真的很好，你們知道嗎？

I had been doing really good, you know?

我下了追蹤器，我下了屏蔽器

Installed trackers, installed blockers

我卸載了非必需的APP

Deleted non-essential apps

關(guān)掉了通知信息

Turned off notifications

關(guān)掉了推送

Turned off push.

然后呢

But then I

我想得太單純了

It’s so simple.

我沖動(dòng)難耐

I had an urge

我說(shuō)，為什么不呢？

And I said why not?

看一眼也無(wú)妨嘛

One peek won't hurt.

CHORUS:

刷新！

Refresh

JESSICA: (spoken)

我已經(jīng)有段時(shí)間沒(méi)有自搜了

I hadn't egosurfed in a while.

CHORUS:

刷新！刷新！

Refresh, refresh

JESSICA: (spoken)

可是在那件事情發(fā)生之后......

Not since my…incident.

CHORUS:

刷新，刷新，刷新，刷新！

Refresh, refresh, refresh, refresh

JESSICA:

對(duì)，我就是杰西卡

Yes I am jessica

就是那個(gè)

That one

被伸張正義的網(wǎng)絡(luò)暴民害慘的

Righteous mobmind casualty

替罪羔羊

Sacrificial lamb

就是我！

That I am

你們都看過(guò)我那條標(biāo)題是“發(fā)瘋的白女”的視頻咯

(spoken) You've all seen my

“white woman goes crazy” video.

CHORUS:

嘿

Hey

JESSICA:

感謝，感謝

Thank you, thank you

CHORUS:

嘿

Hey

JESSICA: (spoken)

沒(méi)人在意他媽的故事背景，不是嗎？

Fuck context right?

其實(shí)我早就看見(jiàn)了

I actually saw it

在我被扒出身份之前

Before I was id'ed

看到視頻里一個(gè)女人理智全無(wú)

Saw this video of a woman losing it

在我的推送流里，一次次循環(huán)播放

Circulating in my feed

那聲音聽(tīng)起來(lái)熟悉

Voices sound familiar

那地方我認(rèn)出來(lái)了

Recognize the place

于是我看見(jiàn)了她

And then I saw her

我的臉

My face

那是我的臉嗎？

Is that my face?

我的臉

My face

那是我的臉嗎？？？

Is that my face?

然后我就開(kāi)始——

And I'd be like

點(diǎn)擊，下滑，操！點(diǎn)擊

Click swipe fuck click

下滑，操！點(diǎn)擊，下滑

Swipe fuck click swipe

操！點(diǎn)擊，下滑，操！

Fuck click swipe fuck

JESSICA & CHORUS:

點(diǎn)擊，點(diǎn)擊...

Click click

JESSICA:

那頭幾個(gè)小時(shí)里

Those first few hours

那頭幾天里

Those first few days

我死死盯著

I was glued

那些下作的話語(yǔ)

To the lewdness

充斥著我的屏幕

On my screen

我讀到關(guān)于我的一切

Reading everything about me

在病態(tài)般的鞭笞中

In morbid flagellation

我同時(shí)打開(kāi)著所有的選項(xiàng)卡

Multitasking all the tabs

每一頁(yè)都是對(duì)我的羞辱

Of my humiliation

CHORUS:

刷新！

Refresh

JESSICA:

這些頭像里的小人們都說(shuō)了什么？

What did this small person say?

CHORUS:

刷新，刷新！

Refresh refresh

JESSICA:

這么多的小人們都說(shuō)了什么？

What did these dozen small persons say?

CHORUS:

刷新，刷新，刷新！

Refresh refresh refresh

JESSICA:

每個(gè)聲音都同樣刺耳

Every voice is equal

每個(gè)聲音都刻入心中

Every voice gets in

我的眼睛像是被縫住無(wú)法合上一般

It was like my eyes were sewn open

心中閃過(guò)一念

With a piece of electric thread

去睡吧

Go to bed

去睡吧！

Go to bed

不！就只再看一條！

No but just one more

只是看短短一句

One shallow little phrase

就會(huì)像火炬一樣把我的大腦點(diǎn)燃！

Would light my brain like a torch

我染上了癮

I became a junkie for it

我深挖每一條梗圖和帖子

Digging deep for all the memes and posts

讓我覺(jué)得自己更加該死

To make me feel more shitty

讓我的恥感受傷至極

Make my shame hurt the most

我就一直——

And I'd be like

JESSICA & CHORUS:

點(diǎn)，滑，操！點(diǎn)

Click swipe fuck click

滑，操！點(diǎn)，滑

Swipe fuck click swipe

操！點(diǎn)，滑，操！

Fuck click swipe fuck

點(diǎn)，點(diǎn)！

Click click

我的名字

My name

那是我的名字嗎？

Is that my name?

我的名字

My name

那是我的名字嗎？

Is that my name?

JESSICA:

哦天吶

Oh god

哦天吶！

Oh god

我看著我自己重生為一個(gè)符號(hào)

I watched myself reborn as an icon

一個(gè)可懼 可恨的符號(hào)

For awfulness and hate

于是我就離開(kāi)了

So then I went away

我來(lái)到了林中

To the forest

不見(jiàn)任何人

No reception

只是一直刷新！

Just refresh

它們讓我心無(wú)雜念——

Make my head feel clean

水

Water

蠟燭

Candles

肥皂

Soap

太陽(yáng)

Sun

天空

Sky

清澈

Clear

專(zhuān)注

Attention

簡(jiǎn)單

Simple

靜止

Stillness

靜默

Silence

森林很美麗

The forest was beautiful

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Refresh

刷新，刷新！

Refresh refresh

刷新，刷新，刷新！

Refresh refresh refresh

可是我們都得重歸生活

But we all have to come back

于是我就回來(lái)了

So I came back

不過(guò)，自然是沒(méi)有回頭路了

But of course there's no coming back

沒(méi)有平反昭雪

No rehabilitation

沒(méi)有任何區(qū)別

No nuance

只有噪音！

Just noise

還有我的潰不成軍！

And complete annihilation

暴民們永不忘記

The mob never forgets

暴民們永不饒恕

The mob never forgives

哪怕你們根本他媽的就不認(rèn)識(shí)我

Even though you don't fucking know me at all

不！你們他媽根本就不知道你們?cè)谡f(shuō)什么

No you've no fucking idea what you are talking about

可我就是沖著陌生人喊叫的那個(gè)

But I am yelling at a stranger

我是精神污染

And a mindwaste

我是兒童不宜

At a petty child robot

嗷，來(lái)吧，來(lái)吧，現(xiàn)在就來(lái)吧！

Aw come on come on come on now

石塊扔向我！

Stone me

挑刺于我！

Bone me

遷怒于我！

Spunk me

拋棄我！

Junk me

人肉搜索我！

Dox me

瘟神般躲我！

Pox me

羞辱我！

Shame me

廢了我！

Maim me

恨我！

Hate me

毀了我！

Destroy me

操我！

Fuck me

享用我！

Enjoy me

我走投無(wú)路

I am cancelled

沒(méi)有發(fā)聲權(quán)利

No parole

沒(méi)有免責(zé)證明

No release

哈

Huh

你們就愛(ài)這樣？

Would you like that?

我現(xiàn)在很難再與陌生人接近了

It's hard to get close to new people now

我基本不出門(mén)

I don't go out much

我戴上帽子，穿上大衣

I wear a hat and a trenchcoat

打扮得像個(gè)性變態(tài)

Like a pervert

CHORUS:

刷新！刷新！刷新！

Refresh refresh refresh

JESSICA: (spoken)

一切都來(lái)得太快

This all happened so fast

我們尚未來(lái)得及施展那點(diǎn)可憐的同理心

Too fast for our fledgling empathy

技術(shù)丟下我們 揚(yáng)長(zhǎng)而去

The tech got away from us

我們毫無(wú)防備

And we weren't ready

我不覺(jué)得這是我們生來(lái)就能夠應(yīng)對(duì)的...

I don't think we're wired to handle this

CHORUS:

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