today is dragon boat festival,a legal vacation,but temporary.three days later i will go for a examination,so these days i have been preparing for it.i donot want to do experiments, to go to the office either. lots of things happened,beating me completely.by coincidence,my finger was hurted,thus providing me with a reason for which i do nothing even though it just need to do a little,i maybe begin to write my first paper.but i donot want to.my biggest weaknesses may be that i am always late for something,i can sleep deeply for a long time,and i donot have a good temper,taking emotions and expressions to the work.i ever thought i was a student here,just my point focuses on the research.but gradually i am awared that i am just a labour ,so cheap and humble ,for the teacher,for the boss.and this kind of atmosphere is so??common in this circle ?that everybody has been adapted to this ,excluding me.So desperately, no wonder we generations wonot be famous at home and broad.i am so sick of surroundings.colleagues are terrible meanwhile.maybe i run out of my motivation. i cannot make any change.it is very difficult to prevent me from being affected.just want to go home right now.