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I never saw Nicole again after that night, but I did speak to her again twice after that. About a year later I was at my brother’s apartment when she called him. He had maintained his friendship with her even though I hadn’t, and she called to check up on him from time to time (my brother had leukemia). I answered the phone when she called, and she was so happy to hear my voice. She told me she had moved to Florida and was working at a bar, and she missed me terribly, and she wished she could see me again. We spoke for a couple of minutes, then I handed the phone to my brother and took a walk.
I found out from him later that “working at a bar” actually meant she was dancing in a strip club. She had gotten back together with her ex and they moved to Florida together. He was dealing and she was dancing. Apparently he got her hooked on a few other drugs then took off with some other dancer, so she was living down there and dancing to pay her rent and her habit. It was sad.

我后退了一步，拉開了我們之間的距離，并盡可能平靜地說:“如果你今晚去你前夫那里，就再也不要回來了?！比缓笪肄D(zhuǎn)身走進(jìn)了屋子。我沒有關(guān)門，這是無言的邀請，請她回來，只要她愿意的話。大約五分鐘過去了，然后我聽到車門打開和關(guān)上的聲音，聽到引擎啟動的聲音，聽到她開車離開的聲音。
那天晚上之后我再也沒見過妮可，但在那之后我確實又和她通過兩次電話。那是大約一年后，她打電話給我哥哥時，我正在我哥哥的公寓里。我哥哥和她一直保持著友誼，而我已經(jīng)和她斷了聯(lián)系，她不時打電話來探望哥哥的病情(我哥哥得了白血病)。她打來電話時我接了電話，她聽到我的聲音很高興。她告訴我她搬到了佛羅里達(dá)，在一家酒吧工作，她非常想念我，她希望能再見到我。我們聊了幾分鐘，然后我把電話遞給哥哥，出去散步了。
后來我從我哥哥那里知道，“在酒吧工作”實際上是指她在脫衣舞俱樂部跳舞。她和前夫重歸于好，一起搬到了佛羅里達(dá)。前夫販毒，她跳脫衣舞。很明顯，她的前夫讓她染上了一些其他的毒品，然后她的前夫和其他舞者私奔了，她就住在那里，通過跳脫衣舞來付房租和買毒品。聽起來讓人悲傷。

The last time I spoke to her was ten years later. Out of the blue one day I decided I wanted to talk to my old friend. I used an online people-finder service to get her number, and I called and left a message on her voicemail. She called me back, and we talked for about twenty minutes. It was so depressing. She was completely burnt out, she told me she was living on disability, and she had some Indian dude that took care of her. I think he was her dealer. She was so out of it that she forgot who she was talking to three times during our conversation. At one point she realized she need to tell me that her friend Robin had died six years earlier. I had to remind her that Robin was my brother, and she only knew him because of me. She kept apologizing for being so forgetful, and I assured her it was okay. It wasn’t. When I hung up the phone I knew I would never speak to her again.
I still held out hope that she would turn her life around, and a few years later I did a Google search on her name to see if I could find any social media accounts for her. All I found were her mugshots, she had been arrested seven times over two years for various drug charges. Her pictures were so disturbing, she was a year younger than me, but looked twenty years older. She looked nothing like the beautiful, vibrant girl I fell in love with in high school.

我最后一次和她說話是在十年之后。突然有一天，我決定和這位老朋友談?wù)?。我使用了一個網(wǎng)上尋人服務(wù)獲得了她的號碼，我給她打了電話，并在她的語音信箱留言。她給我回了電話，我們談了大約20分鐘。談話過程太令人沮喪了。她整個人已經(jīng)垮了，她告訴我她靠殘障救助生活，有個印度人照顧她。我想應(yīng)該是毒販。她已經(jīng)神智不清了，在我們談話的時候，她三次忘了在跟誰說話。她對我說她的朋友羅賓在六年前去世了，于是我不得不提醒她，羅賓是我哥哥，她是因為我才認(rèn)識了我哥哥。她不停地為自己的健忘道歉，我嘴上說著沒什么。但心里五味雜陳。當(dāng)我掛斷電話時，我知道我再也不會和她說話了。
我仍然對她會改變自己的生活抱有希望，幾年后，我用谷歌搜索了她的名字，看看是否能找到她的社交媒體賬號。我只找到了她的照片，在過去的兩年里，她因各種毒品指控被逮捕過七次。她的照片讓人唏噓，她比我小一歲，但照片卻看起來比我大20歲。她看起來一點也不像我在高中時愛上的那個漂亮活潑的女孩。

Two months ago I went back to my home town to attend the retirement concert for my Godmother, who was retiring after twenty-five years as the choral director for my hometown high school and middle school. I was meeting a group of former classmates, and we were all going to surprise her at the end of the concert. One of the people in our group was Nicole’s older sister. I approached her before the concert and asked her how Nicole was doing. She let me know that Nicole had passed away three years ago.
It isn’t surprising that she’s gone. That was the lifestyle she chose.. I’ll never know how things might have turned out if we had just done things a little differently. I wouldn’t change anything.if I had ended up with her I never would have met my fiancee, and even though I lost her last year I still wouldn’t trade the seven years we had together for anything.

兩個月前，我回到家鄉(xiāng)參加我教母的退休音樂會，我教母在我家鄉(xiāng)的中學(xué)擔(dān)任了25年的合唱指揮，即將退休。我和一群以前的同學(xué)見了面，我們準(zhǔn)備在音樂會結(jié)束時給我教母一個驚喜。其中一個人是妮可的姐姐。音樂會開始前，我找到她，問她妮可怎么樣了。她告訴我妮可三年前就去世了。
她走了我一點也不奇怪。這是她選擇的生活方式。我有時在想，如果我們只是稍微改變一下做事方式，也許會有不一樣的結(jié)局。但我不想改變?nèi)魏问虑椤Ｈ绻易罱K和她在一起，我就永遠(yuǎn)也不會遇到我的未婚妻，即使我們在去年分手了，但我仍然不會用我們在一起的7年時光來交換任何東西。

EDIT: A couple have people have asked why I shared her pictures, and it’s a fair question. I debated for a bit about whether it was appropriate before I finally decided to include them. I wanted to illustrate the change that she went through, to show how much her choices affected her. I know from talking to her that last time that she regretted those choices, although she couldn’t stop making them. I also know that she would have been okay with me sharing her pictures. She was always very open about who she was, and I believe she would be happy knowing that people had heard her story, as tragic as it is.
Also, a few people have asked why I didn’t do more to prevent her from going back to her ex or trying to break her addiction. The problem is that it wasn’t the drugs that she was addicted to, it was the control that her ex had over her. He made her believe that she was his property, and in the end I couldn’t get through to her that the only person she belonged to was herself. Either way, I couldn’t force her to make different choices, all I could do was show her that there were alternatives and then leave her to live her life.
Thank you to everyone who took the time to read and comment.

附注:有人問我為什么要分享她的照片，這個問題問得好。在我最終決定把照片發(fā)出來之前，我也很猶豫。我想展示她人生所經(jīng)歷的變化，展示她的選擇對她有多大的影響。我從上次和她的談話中知道，盡管她無法擺脫自己的生活軌跡，但她確實后悔了。我也知道她會同意我分享她的照片。她對自己是什么樣的人很坦率，我相信她會很高興知道人們聽到她的故事，盡管故事本事是個悲劇。
還有一些人問我，為什么我沒有做更多的事情來阻止她回到她的前夫身邊，或者試著戒掉她的毒癮。問題不在于她對毒品上癮，而在于她前夫?qū)λ目刂?。他讓她相信她是他的財產(chǎn)，我無法讓她明白她只屬于她自己。無論如何，我都不能強(qiáng)迫她做出不同的選擇，我所能做的就是讓她知道還有其他選擇，然后讓她選擇過自己的生活。
感謝每一個花時間閱讀和評論的人。

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Paris Bourne Tatsionas, lives in Edinburgh
The story starts when I was 15 years old, summer 2011.
I first saw her on Facebook, I checked her photos and I send a friend request. After an hour she accepted it.
You know how it goes, right?
I send her a message:
-Hi, how are you?
-Hi, I’m good, how about you?
-I’m good as well, thank you. How is your day been?
-Good, how about yours?
At the end I asked her if she is going out tonight and she said yes.So I thought maybe I could meet her

（回答二）故事開始于我15歲那年的夏天。
我第一次見到她是在臉書上，我查看了她的照片，并向她發(fā)送了好友請求。一個小時后，她接受了。
你們都知道接下來的流程，對吧?
我給她發(fā)了個信息:
-嗨，你好嗎?
你好，我很好，你呢?
-我也很好，謝謝。你今天過得怎么樣?
-很好，你呢?
最后我問她今晚會出去玩嗎？她說會。所以我想也許出去能碰見她。

I was a bit nervous as I was getting ready for the night and my friend was making fun of me. As we were walking on the maine street of my town adn talking about something with my friend I turned to my left, and I saw her with her friend.
They were looking at a window shopping, admiring a pair of shoes if I remember well.
Suddenly I got nervous again, and started sweating
She turned around and she saw me, smiled and said hey.
As I opened my mouth to say hey as well, my voice changed and in a high pitch a hello came out.
I my god I thought, the one moment I had to make a good impression and this high pitch comes out.
I didn’t stop to continue the conversation as I was so embarrassed that I continued walking.
The next day, I messaged her again and asked if she had fun last night and all that. Apart from that conversation we didn’t talk again for the rest of the summer.
As September came, my parents decided I had to change high schools .

我為那晚見面做準(zhǔn)備的時候有點緊張，以至于我的朋友都在取笑我。隨后我們走在鎮(zhèn)子的大街上，我和我的朋友談?wù)撝裁?，我向左一轉(zhuǎn)頭，看見她和她的朋友在一起。
如果我沒記錯的話，他們正看著櫥窗，欣賞著一雙鞋子。
我突然又緊張起來，開始冒汗。
她轉(zhuǎn)過身，看見了我，微笑著對我說了聲嗨。
當(dāng)我張嘴也想說“嗨”時，我的聲音變了，用變形的嗓音喊出了“你好”。
天哪，我當(dāng)時在想，第一次見面都要給人留下好印象，但我卻發(fā)出了怪音。
我沒有停下來繼續(xù)交談，因為我太尷尬了，于是我繼續(xù)向前走了。
第二天，我再次給她發(fā)短信，問她昨晚玩得開心嗎?除了那次談話，我們在這個夏天剩下的時間里沒有再說話。
到了9月，我父母決定為我換所高中。

I didn’t mind about the change, as I knew a few guys from the new high school. As I was walking to my class, first day I enter the classroom and there she was… sitting with the same friend of hers at the desk and chatting.
I smiled and she smiled back and said hello.
For the next three years we became friends though I always continued to like her. There were periods of time that I thought she liked me as well, but I didn’t have the courage to make a move.p
As we graduated high school, I started studying in Edinburgh, Scotland and she went to Athens, Greece to pursue her dream.
Fast forward in 2017, I went to Athens and in the subway out of nowhere I saw her.
It was one of the biggest smiles I ever had in my face for a while. I hugged her and we started talking.

我并不介意這種改變，因為我想認(rèn)識一些新同學(xué)。當(dāng)我第一天走進(jìn)教室，就看到她和一個朋友坐在桌旁聊天。
我對她笑了笑，她也對我微笑并打招呼。
在接下來的三年里，我們成為了朋友，盡管我一直都很喜歡她。有一段時間，我覺得她也喜歡我，但我沒有勇氣采取行動
高中畢業(yè)后，我開始在蘇格蘭的愛丁堡學(xué)習(xí)，而她去了希臘的雅典追求她的夢想。
快進(jìn)到2017年，我去了雅典，在地鐵里突然看到了她。
那一刻，我臉上露出了人生中最燦爛的笑容。我擁抱了她，然后開始交談。

She had to go somewhere but told me to meet and go for a coffee later on in the day, I believe it was around 11 am at that point.
Around 4 o’clock we met again and went for coffee.
She is in a relationship for the last 2.5 years, the guy is 29 years old, and she is almost done with her degree. They live together and they have a dog as well.
She is happy with him, even though her family doesn’t like the guy (me neither to be honest).
I’m happy for her, she has figured her way.
I wish I had told her that I liked her in high school. A girl told recently (2018) she did like me as well in high school, I was her crush as well. I do hope that at some point in the future I will meet her again, and if she is single then I will tell her.

她要趕著去某個地方，所以讓我晚些時候見面喝杯咖啡，我想當(dāng)時大概是上午11點左右。
下午四點鐘左右，我們又見面了，一邊喝咖啡一邊聊天。
她已經(jīng)和她的男友交往了兩年半，男友29歲，而她也快畢業(yè)了。他們住在一起，還養(yǎng)了一只狗。
她和他在一起很開心，盡管她的家人不喜歡他(老實說，我也不喜歡)。
我為她感到高興，她已經(jīng)找到了自己的生活道路。
我真希望我在高中時就告訴她我喜歡她。一個女孩最近告訴我，她在高中時也喜歡我，我也是她的暗戀對象。我真的希望在未來的某個時候我會再見到她，如果她是單身，我會告訴她的。