翻譯了一下windy老師的vlog，可能有些地方有些小問(wèn)題。

Hello,welcome to my channel.

你好，歡迎來(lái)到我的頻道。

Over the past year,losts of ups and downs popped up in my life,well,mostly downs.

過(guò)去的一年，我的生活起起落落,當(dāng)然，大部分是落。

My long-time fans may know that I used to be a college English teacher while I quit my job in last September and then started my half gap half job-seeking journey in Hangzhou.

我的忠實(shí)粉絲可能知道，我曾經(jīng)是一名大學(xué)英語(yǔ)老師，但在去年九月辭職，在杭州開始了我的半空擋半求職之旅。

Confusions and doubts came from all directions including my parents.

困惑和疑慮來(lái)自四面八方，也包括我的父母。

Because in most people's eyes,It's stupid for a girl to give up such a decent job with "編制".

因?yàn)樵诖蠖鄶?shù)人看來(lái)，一個(gè)女孩放棄這樣一份體面的工作編制是愚蠢的。

So after resignation,I never went back home.To be honest,the whole process was very tough.

所以辭職后，我再也沒(méi)有回家。說(shuō)實(shí)話，整個(gè)過(guò)程非常艱難。

Unemployment and the pandemic,wow double kill.parents' blame and push triple kill.

失業(yè)和疫情，哇，雙殺。父母的指責(zé)和推動(dòng)是三殺。

But in today's video,I just want to share with you why I decided to make such a decision.

但在今天的視頻中，我只想和大家分享我為什么做出這樣的決定。

First,I don't think I am qualified to be a college teacher.

首先，我認(rèn)為我沒(méi)有當(dāng)一名大學(xué)教師的資格。

The current college teacher evaluation system makes me feel like a loser.

現(xiàn)行的大學(xué)教師評(píng)價(jià)體系讓我覺(jué)得自己是個(gè)失敗者。

My there-year's experience made me realized that the priority of a college teacher is to deal with matters related to scientific research.

我三年的經(jīng)歷讓我意識(shí)到，大學(xué)教師的首要任務(wù)是處理與科學(xué)研究有關(guān)的事情。

Again such condition,to be a good teacher ,you're gonna publish hight level papers,take charge of or be involved in academic projects, attend several academic conferences,try every means to apply for fund projects.

再加上這樣的條件，要想成為一名好老師，你必須發(fā)表高水平的論文，負(fù)責(zé)或參與學(xué)術(shù)項(xiàng)目，參加幾次學(xué)術(shù)會(huì)議，想方設(shè)法申請(qǐng)基金項(xiàng)目。

All these don't hold my interest and I don't have any confidence in fulfilling them.

所有這些都沒(méi)有引起我的興趣，我也沒(méi)有任何信心去實(shí)現(xiàn)它們。

The worst part is I really can't see any value in doing these things.

最糟糕的是，我真的看不出做這些事情有什么價(jià)值。

My inner sense of value is contradictory with this career's underlying requirements.Horrible!

我內(nèi)心的價(jià)值感與這份職業(yè)的基本要求相矛盾。太可怕了!

I am not saying I hate reading book or learning. Learning for me,it's a very happy experience. I will never stop learning.I enjoy learning.

我并不是說(shuō)我討厭讀書或?qū)W習(xí)。學(xué)習(xí)對(duì)我來(lái)說(shuō)是一次非常愉快的經(jīng)歷。我永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)停止學(xué)習(xí)。我喜歡學(xué)習(xí)。

In addition,since I only got a masters degree. It's inevitable for me to purse a PhD degree as soon as possible that is not what I want to do In my future career.

此外，由于我只獲得了碩士學(xué)位。對(duì)我來(lái)說(shuō)，盡快獲得博士學(xué)位是不可避免的，這不是我未來(lái)職業(yè)生涯中想做的。

I mean I love teaching english and helping my students with their study or their other .

我的意思是，我喜歡教英語(yǔ)，幫助我的學(xué)生學(xué)習(xí)或其他方面。

I want to improve my teaching ability instead of my research ability.I want to be an educator instead of a researcher.

我想提高我的教學(xué)能力而不是研究能力。我想成為一名教育家而不是研究者。

For me，education is not only teaching but how to bring in the great potential of my students, how to encourage them to be themselves and how to be a happy adult.

對(duì)我來(lái)說(shuō)，教育不僅僅是教學(xué)，而是如何激發(fā)學(xué)生的巨大潛力，如何鼓勵(lì)他們做自己，如何成為一個(gè)快樂(lè)的成年人。

I know I am kind of idealist under the status quo.Many students even don't want to take classes at all especially a common required course.

我知道在這種現(xiàn)狀下我是一個(gè)理想主義者。許多學(xué)生甚至根本不想上課，尤其是一門普通的必修課。

The sence of separation and incompetence surrounded me which makes me feel frustrated day by day.

分離感和無(wú)能感包圍著我，這讓我每天都感到沮喪。

Second，my wage is too low and if I can not pass scientific research assessment.My wage will be cut to lower.

第二，我的工資太低，如果我不能通過(guò)科研考核，我的薪水會(huì)被削減。

I think we all agree money can solve most of the problems we face in our lives besides getting sense of accomplishment.

我想我們都同意，除了獲得成就感之外，金錢還可以解決我們生活中面臨的大多數(shù)問(wèn)題。

Another important reasons why we work lie in we can get material gains to help us make a living,tackle the troubles occurred in life and enrich our living experiences and this leads to my third reason.

我們工作的另一個(gè)重要原因是，我們可以獲得物質(zhì)收益來(lái)幫助我們謀生，解決生活中發(fā)生的麻煩，豐富我們的生活體驗(yàn)，這就是我的第三個(gè)原因。

I want to live in a bigger city where the wage level can be higher and more opportunities can be found to earn money above all I can see the possibility that I can promote my income through my effort.

我想住在一個(gè)更大的城市，那里的工資水平可以更高，可以找到更多的賺錢機(jī)會(huì)。最重要的是，我看到了通過(guò)努力提高收入的可能性。

Besides I have strong need for enrich cultural and recreational activities.Big city can mostly satisfy my need.What's more in big city,No one cares about my identify my age my hobby blah blah blah.

此外，我對(duì)豐富文化娛樂(lè)活動(dòng)有著強(qiáng)烈的需求。大城市大多能滿足我的需求。更重要的是，在大城市里，沒(méi)有人關(guān)心我的身份、年齡、愛(ài)好等等。

The whole air is much more easier and slack.I can have a ample room to be myself and to do the things I really like to do.

整個(gè)氛圍變得輕松多了。我可以有足夠的空間做我自己，做我真正喜歡做的事情。

However，there are also several disadvantages for living in big city.The cost of living comes first.While different choices different roads.

然而，在大城市生活也有幾個(gè)缺點(diǎn)。生活成本是第一位的。不同的選擇不同的道路。

There's no such a road called smooth until the end.

沒(méi)有這樣一條路平坦直到盡頭。

As a adult,I only to be responsible for my own decisions.I don't need to explain to anyone.This is my life.I have the final say.

作為一個(gè)成年人，我只需要對(duì)自己的決定負(fù)責(zé)。我不需要向任何人解釋。這是我的生活,我說(shuō)了算。

Life is not easy.We should always choose to believe in our judgement and have faith in ourselves.?

生活并不容易。我們應(yīng)該始終選擇相信自己的判斷，相信自己。

No cry no regrets.More courage,more possibility.That's all for my todays sharing.Thanks for your attention.see you!

不哭不后悔。多一份勇氣，多一份可能性。今天的分享就到這里。謝謝大家的關(guān)注。再見(jiàn)！

"Life is full failures, regrets, struggles and even death.who you are is defined by what you are willing to struggle for! The joy is in the exploration itself."

“生活充滿了失敗、遺憾、掙扎甚至死亡。你是誰(shuí)取決于你愿意為什么而奮斗！快樂(lè)就在于探索本身?！?/p>