一、我現(xiàn)在的狀態(tài)-靈魂感到孤獨

Very lonely, honestly, I might be surrounded with a lot of people uh it could be friends, family, whatever like, working a company people, employees, staff.There's love there, but deep down, I know that like mentally in my soul like? I'm lonely.

非常孤獨，說實話，我可能被很多人包圍著，比如朋友、家人，或者在公司里工作的人、員工、職員。雖然有愛存在，但我深知在我的心靈深處，我是孤獨的。

And I have no shoulder to lean on in my soul.It's been a while already yeah I'm still recovering from it. I don't know who to call, honestly, because honestly speaking my parents in some way we're also working together like as the finance whatever it's in taking part participating in in the company.

在我的靈魂里，我沒有可以依靠的肩膀。已經(jīng)有一段時間了，是的，我仍在從中恢復(fù)的過程中。說實話，我不知道該打電話給誰，因為老實說，我的父母在某種程度上也在一起工作，比如參與公司的財務(wù)管理等等。

Right I have all my friends where we're running the business right and I feel like I'm always outputting deep down, I don't feel like I'm receiving, you get me, I don't have another party to connect to in my soul.A lot of times and I and I know there's a lot of saying that ,hey you know what, in this industry entertainment whatever uh you get you get lonely you just get lonelier it's the way it is right and I think I'm just going through that.

是的，我的所有朋友都在和我一起從事業(yè)務(wù)，我感覺我一直在輸出，但內(nèi)心深處感覺沒有回應(yīng)。我感覺自己無法與另一個人在靈魂層面上建立聯(lián)系。很多時候，因為很多人說，嘿你知道嗎，在這個娛樂行業(yè)中，你會變得孤獨，你會變得更孤獨，這就是這個行業(yè)需要面對的。而我想我正在經(jīng)歷這個階段。

?二、這種狀態(tài)曾讓我迷失自我

I think before 「Magicman」I was in the process of facing it and it almost feels like I'm in a dark room I'm sprinting in a dark room.And I'm just knocking everything over, if it felt like that.But now it's the same thing I'm going through the same thing but I know oh this is what it is

我認(rèn)為在Magicman專輯之前我處于面對低谷的過程中，幾乎感覺像是我在黑暗中奔跑。然后我想搞砸所有事情，感覺就是那樣的。雖然現(xiàn)在仍處于類似狀態(tài)，但是我知道自己在做什么。

It's more clear what I'm going through I'm more I'm aware of now, but before,I was in the deepest deepest uh the lowest point of my life mentally.It I'm not a person that I would want to avoid stuff but during that moment for the whole year I think I was trying the first time in life that I wanted to avoid I didn't want to face it because I don't know what it is and I felt like I lost everything.

現(xiàn)在我更清楚自己正在經(jīng)歷什么，我現(xiàn)在意識到了，但之前我精神上處于生命中最低谷，最深的深淵中。心理上。我不是逃避，我并不是一個會逃避問題的人，但那個時候大概有一整年，我人生第一次想要逃離，不想去面對。我不想去面對它，因為我不知道這是什么，而且我感覺自己失去了一切

三、想去面對一切，決定展示不完美的自己。

I decided to show the not perfect side of myself and I'm I feel like it's okay to tell people because I'm being true right

我決定展示自己不完美的一面，我覺得向別人坦誠也沒關(guān)系，因為這就是真實的自己。

And I'm not perfect I think I just need to admit it and start opening up myself to talk with to connect with more and more people before I was just like. Before I was just like work work work and get straight into the point you know uh I think before it's more like I care too much about trying to satisfy everybody around me but now it's just like I figure out like hey what about me it's my career it's my path and I can't expect them to have the same dream? as I do because it's my dream it's not their dream they have their own dream so that came to my mind so I'm like hey I have to be the leader of my world my goals and my and my and my dream.

是的，我并不完美，我覺得我只需要承認(rèn)這一點，開始敞開自己與更多的人交談，互相感受彼此，以前我不是這樣的，我以前就只是一直工作、工作、工作，直截了當(dāng)直奔主題。我認(rèn)為以前我太過于在意周圍每個人的感受，試圖去取悅他們。但現(xiàn)在我意識到，嘿，這是我自己的事業(yè)和和自己的道路，不能指望他們和我有同樣的夢想，因為這是我的夢想，不是他們的。他們有他們的夢想，這個想法浮現(xiàn)在我的腦海中，于是我想，我必須要主宰我自己的世界，為我的目標(biāo)和夢想努力。

四、我只是你們?nèi)松倪^客，做好自己

I want my audience and my supporters to know that I'm an Entertainer right I'm an artist performing all I want to do is to entertain them in every way because I really feel like you know fame, popularity, that thing is bubbles it doesn't last forever and I feel like the amount of time that I have I just want to make everybody smile, entertained.

我希望我的觀眾和支持者知道，我是一個演藝人員，一個表演藝術(shù)者，我的目標(biāo)是以各種方式讓他們感到開心。因為我真的覺得，名利、流行這些東西都是泡沫，不會永遠(yuǎn)存在。我覺得在我擁有的時間里，我只想讓每個人都能開心，娛樂大家。

through music, through my performance, whatever it is, that's all I want and I want them in their own fields, their career. I want them to become somebody that they're proud of I want them to be good it's not about me. I'm just one of those artists that just comes in and it's gonna be gone anytime.?

透過音樂，透過我的表演，無論是什么方式，這就是我想要的。我希望他們在自己的領(lǐng)域、自己的職業(yè)中成為自己覺得值得驕傲的人。我希望他們都能生活的很好，不僅僅只關(guān)注我，我只是很多藝人中的一個，我只是大家的過客也可能隨時離開大眾視野。