翻譯+校對: 吉光片羽九色鹿

Stop wasting your time and energy trying to escape the shackles. You can't unlock it without the key. Don't think about unlocking it with a makeshift key, either. Because I've checked you out thoroughly from head to toe. All clear.?

Well, well, well, look at what a determined face you've got! You're unwilling to raise your head and look into my eyes, are you? Am I hideous to you? Are you talking about me? You have to raise your head and look me in the eyes when I'm grabbing you by the chin.

What a new experience! Tears are welling up in your eyes when you lift your head to look at me. You're clenching your teeth out of irritation as though you're gonna kill me. You must have been suffering a lot since you've hated me so much. You hate me so much that you wanna kill me, but you have to sleep next to me every single night.?

So what are you thinking about when we eat together? You must have been slowly poisoning me, and waiting for me to die in agony. What are you planning when you sleep next to me every night? You can't fall?asleep unless you put a knife under your pillow. Maybe you'll stab me to death one day.?

When I tried to hold your hand the first time, you slipped away from me. You said you were too shy to do it. I had no doubt of your words. Now I realise you put up your defence mechanism. You've noticed all my mixed emotions. My possessiveness, my affection, and my insecurity, haven't you? I'm so pathetic! I'm just helpless prey that was trapped in your pitfall, and couldn't escape from it.?

Why are you closing your eyes? Are you feeling sick from/about/with recalling those nightmares? Open your eyes! I don't wanna repeat myself. Look at me, please. Look deeply into my eyes. Is this a good way to punish you? You can't hold your tears anymore? Stop crying. Shhhh. What are your tears for? Sadness? Feeling unfairly treated? Stubbornness? Or fear? The tears fell onto my palm. You're cold-blooded while your tears are warm. But why, Babe? Didn't I treat you right??

I hadn't fallen in love with anyone until I met you. Every time I see you, I stop myself from loving you. But actually, I wish I could devote my heart to you. You can have all of me. My body, my soul and all my love and my mixed feelings. As long as you want them all. But I'm afraid this would get you frightened. I'm always careful of showing my strong feelings just in case you can't take them. I was approaching you slowly, wishing you could accept me as a partner.?

You're just like the one in my dream, hazy, fragile, too good to be true. I had to be gentle with my finger tips so that you wouldn't dissipate like bursted bubbles. I was in heaven when I heard you said you loved me. My dream girl showed up in a real-life scenario. Crystal clear. I could easily touch you. But look what you've done! You've made yourself bait and trapped me! When I turned back, you stabbed me in my heart. No, I wasn't dead. But I almost died.?

I thought you really wanted to invite me to watch the fireworks show yesterday. How beautiful they were when they exploded into glistening sparks. I wanted to bend down to kiss you. But next moment, you put a gun against my side. You didn't shoot me straight away. You don't have the experience to be?a killer though you've got determination and endurance. Why not? Why did I feel moved when hearing you say you were soft-hearted? I wanna hear you say you felt something since we've been together for so long. So you cherished my efforts. Say it. At least in some moments, the loving sparks in your eyes are true.?

I'm taking full control as you now look up at me, down on your knees. But it seems I'm in the inferiors position.

(To be continued)