00 - Reflections on Love, Fate, and Promises: A Journal of Id Re
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Do you believe in karma?
Do you believe in fate?
I do.
Once, when I was helpless,
I received help from a stranger.
I asked why he wanted to help me.
He?said,
"I have a son who works far away,
I can't do much for him,
But I hope that when he faces difficulties,
Someone will help him like I did."
I am fortunate; I've met many people with great love.
They've treated me kindly and offered help.
I want to pass on this kindness, just like that person did back then.
I've helped many people, but I never thought it would hurt the person I wanted to protect.
Perhaps, I'm a good teammate, a good friend, or even a good stranger,
But I'm not a good partner.
What does faithful love look like?
I used to think it meant never betraying, being there during the toughest times, protecting him.
I used to think I did this well.
I used to confidently answer that my conscience was clear.
But... now I hesitate.
When I hurt the person I wanted to protect,
I find I can't confidently answer that question anymore.
I finally understand why friends around me are so enthusiastic about love.
It's sweet, captivating,
But at the same time fragile, like glassware in a bustling crowd.
I'm a novice, so I'm destined to not protect it well.
I don't know if being with them is the right choice.
Perhaps I'm not the one he has?been waiting for.
Perhaps there's someone better suited to protect him.
A relationship that no one believes in
......
Maybe it's all preordained.
Love is sweet, but it's also heavy.
I don't know if I can endure it,
But I know I will keep my promise.

