Since I started doing up, I have been receiving messages and comments from people who are struggling with various life questions, such as "How can I improve my cognitive abilities?" "How do I find meaning in my life?" "I'm feeling anxious and don't know how to cope," "I'm going through a rough patch in life and don't know how to get out," "What is the value of life?"

These questions are the ultimate pursuit of human existence and everyone faces them at some point. However, the answers to these questions are never in the hands of others. People ask me these questions because they have seen me overcome my own difficulties and trust me to provide a glimmer of hope.

In my opinion, these questions are essentially asking: How to get out of the current predicament and how to find the motivation for current life?

Really, I have no way to let you know how much I want to tell you the answer. I am already 35 years old, and temporarily got out of a personal low point through some methods. It seems that I have found the answer, but I am only 35 years old. My future life will still be full of turbulence and setbacks. I am extremely sure about this. However, I am not sure whether my existing answer can cope with the problems of my future life. If I easily give you the answer, would you believe it? If there really were a definitive answer, why do religions and philosophies persist to this day?

Two days ago, a very talented freshman girl found me through Bilibili's invitation to join this workshop. We spent about three hours discussing her problem, and after the conversation, I felt both frustrated and motivated. I realized that I wasn't able to completely solve her problem. If I were to go back to her age, it seems that I wouldn't be able to solve my own problems either. This brought back memories of my restless years, when I was easily influenced by my environment and values that society instilled in me, which were contradictory and confusing. I couldn't distinguish right from wrong and my emotions were unstable. My mind was like a raging fire that could be easily ignited but also easily extinguished. So no matter what I say, it seems right and wrong to people at this stage, which is frustrating.

But what gives me motivation is the space I see in these conversations, the space that represents my value. Based on what I've learned, felt, and thought, I can carefully sort through and transform my thinking, not limited to one form of expression, but exploring how to inspire those who have different cognitive abilities but aspire to improve. Yes, not solving, but inspiring. I am just a seed planter.

This allows me to review and improve my methods that I have learned, mastered, deliberately practiced, and internalized into my subconscious, and transform them into forms of expression that inspire others.

Thinking about this, I am filled with excitement and quickly write down my thoughts, wanting to share with you. I seem to have a new ability, a new way of interpreting the books I have at hand, where the information is broken down and reassembled, and my mind is constantly recoding them. I feel the power of "creation".

自我做up以來，私信與評論區(qū)似乎有一個永恒的問題，問法各有不同，比如“姐姐，認知該怎么提升啊”“我該怎么知道我自己的人生意義”“我很焦慮不知道該如何緩解”“我也在人生低谷期不知道怎么走出來”“人生的價值是什么啊”

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這些問題，是生而為人的必然困惑，誰也逃不掉的終極追問，但是答案，永遠不在別人手上，這個問題，誰也解決不了誰的。

大家愿意問我這些問題，是因為看到了我從低谷期慢慢走了出來，是對我的信任，是把我當做了一絲絲希望，

這些問題本質(zhì)在我看來都是在問：如何走出當下的困局，怎么找到當下生活的動力？

真的，我沒有辦法讓你們知道，我有多想把答案告訴你們。我已經(jīng)35歲了，階段性的暫時靠一些方法走出了我個人人生的一個低谷，看上去我已經(jīng)找到了答案，但我也才35歲而已，我后面的人生，依舊會是充滿動蕩和波折的，這一點我無比確信，然而我現(xiàn)有的答案能不能足以應對我未來的人生問題呢，這一點我不確信。如果答案我輕易給出來，你會相信嗎？如果這個真的有標準答案，為什么自古宗教不息、哲學不滅呢？

前天有個非常優(yōu)秀的大一小妹妹通過b站邀請我入駐的這個工坊版塊找到我，從她描述問題到最后溝通結(jié)束，一共聊了大概3個小時吧，就是這一次溝通后，既讓我挫敗又讓我充滿動力，挫敗的是，我好像并沒有完全解惑，就好像如果讓我回到她那個年紀，現(xiàn)在的我似乎也解決不了當時我的問題，這讓我回憶起來，在那樣躁動的歲月里，我是那么的容易受環(huán)境影響，誰都可以左右我，誰又都不能改變我，腦海里充斥著眾多這個社會灌給我的價值觀，互相矛盾，可我卻分辨不出是非對錯，所以我情緒忽高忽低，內(nèi)心像是有團火，輕易可以被點燃，但又輕易可以被澆滅。所以無論我說什么，對于這個階段的人來說，似乎對又似乎不對，這是讓我挫敗的地方。

那什么又讓我充滿動力呢，在這樣的對話中，我看到了空間，這個空間就是我的價值，我可以基于我所學所感所思，認真梳理一番，換一個思維，不再局限于一種表達方式，而是去探究如何啟發(fā)與我認知不同卻渴望進步的人的心智，對，不是解決，是啟發(fā)，我只是去做一個播種子的人，這讓我重新把已學過的、已掌握的、已經(jīng)刻意聯(lián)系并內(nèi)化為我的潛意識的方法，再進一步改良并轉(zhuǎn)化為啟發(fā)式的表達形式。

想到這里，我就無比興奮，奮筆疾書，想要把這個感受分享出來。我好像擁有一種全新的能力，當我再去讀我手邊的這些書的時候，我似乎又有了全新的解讀方式，這些信息打散了又重組，在我腦海里馬不停蹄的在重新編碼，我感受到了“創(chuàng)造”的力量。