????I had my share of agony, so I could probably guess what it meant when you said “We don’t believe in love.” The key difference might be my grandma and my aunt in that they loved me, at least when I was young.

????I once was a friend with a queer Scottish. apparently, his mother abandoned him and therefore ruined his life ever since. He once married a Chinese, only in three months to discover she was the type that would smash all his belongings, which certainly added to the scratches on his heart. We had a few talks and one day, by a river side, we saw a kindergarten boy, wearing a police costume, wandering in front of us while mumbling something, and we laughed, wholeheartedly.

????We exchanged our life stories and when he asked me why I still had faith in the concept of family and love, he wouldn’t listen to reason. However, he said “Perhaps.” when I referred to the young boy as my defence.

????And I can’t argue with you saying you should believe in love or anything, because just as the lyric goes, “Love is only for the lucky and the strong.” and acceptance is also a key factor determining happiness. But if it is the case, it is never wise to be driven by fear, however strong, and to so easily give up one of the most important elements in life.

????Why? You said you wanted freedom, but what is seemingly “free of charge”, more often than not, comes with a consequence—the “freedom” to run away in face of danger prevents you from making any breakthrough, and therefore, imprisons you. And so it is with love. Believe in it, you will have the glamour and the pain, which will prove very helpful if you learn from it; not believe in it, the feeling of emptiness will drive you for all sorts of substitutes that?lead to endless madness and numbing pain.

????Furthermore, giving it up denies you from having the chance to truly own it, which I agree is highly unlikely but still possible. Would you tell me you won’t want it even if it is placed right in front of you? And how would you feel if you know, if only you’ve worked towards it, you’d have had a lifetime of happiness?

????I know. It is not easy. Nothing worthy is ever easy.