I used to say:

我常說

Love is the only thing worth living for

愛是唯一值得追求的

But it occurred to me this morning

但今早我突然想到

that there is always a possibility

永遠(yuǎn)都存在一種可能

in the entirety of a lifetime

即便耗費(fèi)我的一生

for me to be unable to find love

我也無法找到愛

You know how life can be

你應(yīng)該也見識(shí)到過

when the odds are against you

什么是命運(yùn)的捉弄

?

Love

愛

in the best of my conjecture

在我最好的構(gòu)想中

should be so pure

應(yīng)該是如此得純粹

that the thought of it motivated me

以至于它激勵(lì)了我

to paddle through an ocean

劃著小漿

of hardships and nightmares

渡過了艱難與夢魘的海洋

So, the very moment the idea sank in

于是，這個(gè)想法沉入心底的那一刻

was the moment my soul

也是我的靈魂

at the same time

同時(shí)

drowned and floated

沉沒又浮起的那一刻

because of which

因此

despite my morning fatigue

我拖著疲乏的身軀

I got out of bed

早早地起床

and got into doing things

開始做事情

the guitar, teaching materials, my long-conceived book, and retrospection into the past

吉他，教學(xué)材料，我構(gòu)思了許久的書，以及對過去的回顧

?

A past lived in fear

那是一個(gè)浸淫于恐懼中的過去

a past always in pursuit

一個(gè)一直在追逐的過去

a span of never wholesome

一段永遠(yuǎn)都不健全的時(shí)光

and a?journey

一份旅途

in the search

在搜尋

on the run

在奔忙

and so gruesome

籠罩于死亡?

What if I don’t get it?

如果我得不到呢？

?

No matter what

無論如何

life moves on

生活會(huì)繼續(xù)

And maybe

也許

maybe I could decide

也許我能夠

not now

不是現(xiàn)在

but on that path of uncertainties

而是走在那條不確定的道路上時(shí)，再做決定

where I can finally

我也終于能夠

call myself an adventurer

把自己稱為一名冒險(xiǎn)者

?

See?

你看

Through this wilderness of sadness

只要穿過這片悲傷的荒野

curtains of new stages will be lifted

通往新舞臺(tái)的幕布將被揭開

Nothing in the world changed

這世上的什么都沒變

Yet

但

through a new you

當(dāng)它們穿過一個(gè)嶄新的你

everything becomes different

一切又都不再尋常