很抱歉直到剛剛我才發(fā)現(xiàn)了這條3個月前的消息。可能各位有些甚至不認(rèn)識他，但他也是盛極一時(shí)的波蘭球動畫師，我覺得很有必要讓他的中國粉絲知道（即使不多），至今我也沒有發(fā)現(xiàn)有哪位up發(fā)過相關(guān)信息，所以決定發(fā)下，以下為譯制后的原文：

大家好。

我終于決定發(fā)表一篇關(guān)于這里發(fā)生的事情的最新報(bào)道。我很抱歉，但在這篇文章的結(jié)尾，你可能會感到失望，也許會生氣，坦率地說，我會理解的。但無論如何，我想借此機(jī)會解釋幾件事。

2015年以來，我一直是波蘭球迷，這意味著我生活的很大一部分都受到了波蘭球的影響。我在那里遇到了無數(shù)人，我甚至一度在社區(qū)里找到了不止一個朋友。我花了數(shù)月甚至數(shù)年時(shí)間在越來越大的項(xiàng)目上工作，每次都試圖在reddit和Youtube上超越自己。每一部新作品都受到了越來越多觀眾的好評，每次都促使我努力做得更好，因?yàn)槲也幌胱屓耸Ｋ晒α?，每一個新項(xiàng)目都比前一個項(xiàng)目花費(fèi)了我更多的時(shí)間，每次都給我?guī)砀嗟淖院栏?。與此同時(shí)，我的學(xué)術(shù)生涯正在騰飛，讓我更接近我真正想做的事情。在這段時(shí)間里，我一直努力在我的學(xué)習(xí)和我的粉絲圈活動之間保持健康的平衡。

但后來發(fā)生了幾件事，開始破壞我制作內(nèi)容的初衷。第一，法國近代史。我知道我自己，在一個大項(xiàng)目之后，我想加倍努力。但我遇到了一個新問題：還有什么可做的？我可以嘗試做些什么來讓我的作品“新鮮”并再次吸引人？我能找到的唯一答案是“做更大的事情”。但比我花了一年時(shí)間完成的視頻更大，工作了無數(shù)小時(shí)，而我的日常工作量卻越來越重？我根本做不到。因?yàn)槠浯危苍S更重要的是，波蘭球媒體已經(jīng)失去了對我的吸引力。我花了太多時(shí)間一次又一次地畫相同的圓圈，開始感覺我陷入了死胡同。去年 12 月，我想我會想再試一次，為另一個油管博主做一個小的波蘭球項(xiàng)目。但我根本做不到，我已經(jīng)失去了動力。曾經(jīng)對超越自己的強(qiáng)烈渴望變成了單純的機(jī)械動作，沒有任何激情。這不是我想做的，它讓我陷入了深深的懷疑之中。碰巧也是在我面臨更多個人問題的時(shí)候，這讓我意識到忠于自己的重要性，而不是欺騙你相信一切都很好，而顯然事實(shí)并非如此。

我開始涉足其他領(lǐng)域，發(fā)現(xiàn)了其他一些新奇感沒有被磨滅的領(lǐng)域。我也繼續(xù)追求我的學(xué)業(yè)，我為自己的成就感到自豪，為我現(xiàn)在的處境感到自豪。我找到越來越少的理由回到波蘭球迷的行列。

幾天前，我正在清理reddit賬戶上的灰塵，閱讀3年、4年、5年前的信息。這一次對我來說是多么陌生。我意識到我已經(jīng)不是原來的那個人了，不管是好是壞，我都不想回來了。這段時(shí)間是我一生中最重要的一段時(shí)間，它幫助我成為了今天的我，但如果我不想繼續(xù)前進(jìn)，我怎么能努力長大呢？我已經(jīng)離開了，這條信息是我向你們解釋它的一種方式。

我不會再創(chuàng)作波蘭球動畫了。我自己花了很長時(shí)間才接受，我知道你們中的一些人也很難接受。你仍然可以看到Y(jié)outube上還保留著我的遺產(chǎn)，請隨意重播，我已經(jīng)隱藏了太多復(fù)活節(jié)彩蛋，你不會很快就把內(nèi)容用完的！但現(xiàn)在，我覺得有必要說再見。每一個新的開始都來自另一個開始的結(jié)束。

感謝我的所有訂閱者，不論是從一開始就在這里的訂閱者還是在我的最新視頻之后發(fā)現(xiàn)我的訂閱者。你們讓我成長，你們在我需要的時(shí)候給我支持。我欠你們這個解釋，我希望現(xiàn)在情況更清楚了。您仍然可以在下面提出問題，如果我覺得合適，我會回答。

我希望這篇文章對我來說將是一個新的曙光。

干杯,

拉斐爾·梅爾基

原文

Hello everyone.

I have finally decided to publish an update on what's happening here. I am sorry, but by the end of this reading, you may feel disappointed, maybe angry, and frankly, I'd understand it. But I would like to take this opportunity to explain a few things anyway.

I have been in the Polandball fandom since 2015, which means a significant part of my life has been impacted by it. I have met countless people there, I may even have found more than friends in the community, at one point. I have spent months and years working on larger and larger projects, trying to outperform myself each time, on reddit and then on Youtube. Each new work was acclaimed by an ever larger audience, pushing me to try and do better each time, because I didn't want to disappoint. And it worked, each new projet taking me more time than the former, and bringing me more pride each time. At the same time, my academic career was taking off, bringing me closer to what I really want to do in my life. I have managed, during all this time, to keep a healthy balance between my studies and my activity in the fandom.

But then, several things happened that started to undermine the very reasons I was producing content. First, the Modern History of France. I know myself, after a big project, I want to double down. But I was met with a new question: what is there left to do? What can I try to do for my work to be "fresh" and appealing again? And the only answer I could find was "do something bigger". But bigger than a video that took me a literal year to finish, with countless hours of work, while my regular workload kept on getting heavier? I simply couldn't. Because secondly, and maybe more importantly, the Polandball medium has lost its appeal to me. I have spent too much time drawing the same circles again and again, and it started feeling like I was in a dead-end. Last December, I thought I would want to try again, do a small Polandball project for another Youtuber. But I simply couldn't, motivation had left me. What once a strong desire to outperform myself turned into mere mechanical movements, devoid of any passion. This was not what I wanted to do, and it threw me in a deep time of doubt. It so happened that it was also during a time when I was faced with more personal issues that made me realize the importance of being true to yourself instead of tricking you into believeing everything is fine when it is clearly not.

I started dabbling into other stuff, discovered other fandoms where the feeling of novelty was not worn out. I also continued to pursue my studies and I am proud of what I have become, of where I am right now. And I found fewer and fewer reasons to come back to the Polandball fandom.

A few days ago, I was scraping off the dust of my reddit account and read messages from 3, 4, 5 years ago. It struck me how foreign this time had become to me. I realized that I was not the same person anymore, and for the better or the worse, that I didn't want to come back. This time remains as one of the most significant in my whole life, it helped me becoming who I am today, but how can I try to grow up if I don't want to move on? I have moved on, and this message is a way for me to explain it to you.

I will not create Polandball animations anymore. It took me time to accept it myself, and I know that it will be difficult for some of you to accept it as well. You still have my legacy here on Youtube, rewatch everything as you please, I have hidden so many easter eggs that you won't run out of content before long! But for the moment, I feel obliged to say goodbye. Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

Thank you to all my subscribers, from those who here here since the very beginning to those who discovered me after my latest video. You have allowed me to grow up, and you have provided me support whenever I needed it. I owed you this explanation, I hope the situation's clearer now. You can still ask questions below, I will answer if I find them appropriate.?

I hope this post will be a new dawn for me.

Cheers,

Rapha?l Melki

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