【騰訊文檔】：https://docs.qq.com/doc/DUndudkFGeVVBSklS

原標題：PorcelainMaid overcame fears with VTubing, thanks to a marionette doll

原鏈接：https://twitter.com/dvckyVT/status/1645714303331479552?s=20

原作者：Ducky?https://twitter.com/dvckyVT?s=20

作者的話：

He's?an?inspiration?to?many?indie?VTubers?with?a?crazy?history?that?predates?the?medium.?So?you?know?@PorcelainMaid's?journey?has?a?few?curves?in?it.

他是很多個人勢Vtuber的“啟發(fā)人”（注：我翻譯不來），有著比*媒體更早的瘋狂歷史，所以你明白人偶妹的歷程有些波折。

I?spoke?to?him?all?about?the?early?days,?gender?norms,?and?more?in?my?latest?feature?for

@Dexerto.

在我為Dexerto撰寫的最新專題中，我和他談論了關于（行業(yè)）早期、性別規(guī)范以及更多其他的內(nèi)容。

PorcelainMaid?overcame?fears?with?VTubing,?thanks?to?a?marionette?doll

人偶妹通過虛擬直播克服了恐懼?，感謝提線人偶

PorcelainMaid?is?a?stalwart?of?the?indie?VTubing?scene.?He?was?doing?it?before?there?was?even?a?recognized?name?or?community.?Seven?years?on?from?his?streaming?start?—?six?as?a?VTuber?—?much?has?changed,?especially?as?he’s?grown?as?a?person.

PorcelainMaid是個人勢虛擬主播中的一個中堅力量。他在“虛擬直播”有官方的稱呼或圈子之前就在做這件事。從他的直播開始到現(xiàn)在已經(jīng)七年了--其中六年是作為虛擬主播--其中有很多變化，特別是他作為一個人的成長。

It?can?be?a?bit?of?an?experience?tuning?into a PorcelainMaid stream (https://twitch.tv/porcelainmaid)?for?the?first?time.?If?you’re?unprepared?for?the?voice?that?comes?out?of?the?six-foot?“sexy?female?doll”,?it?might?be?a?bit?shocking.

第一次進入人偶妹的直播會是一次有趣的經(jīng)歷。如果你對這個六英尺高的“性感女人偶”所發(fā)出的聲音毫無準備，可能會有些震驚。

Most?viewers?are?relatively?chill,?getting?a?laugh?out?of?it?before?sticking?around?for?the?shenanigans.?It’s?also?a?decent?way?to?weed?out?any?bad?actors?who?might?use?that?as?a?point?of?harassment.

多數(shù)的觀眾都相對冷靜，在繼續(xù)看這些惡作劇之前他們會笑一笑。這也是一種剔除任何可能利用這一點來進行騷擾的戲精的體面方式。

That’s?just?who?Jowol?is?now?though.?A?long-time? streamer? and? content? creator? of more than? a decade,? he can't? really see? himself? as anything other than, well, "a bisexual's wet dream??—?sexy?male?voice?trapped?inside?a?sexier?female?body.”

Jowol現(xiàn)在就是這樣的人。作為一個長達十多年的主播和內(nèi)容創(chuàng)作者，除了“一個雙性戀的春夢ーー困在性感女性身體里的性感男聲”之外，他實際上對自己沒有別的看法。

The?origin?story?doesn’t?really?stop?there.?In?fact,?that’s?where?the?fun?begins,?as?he?jovially?recounted?how?this?obscure?marionette?became?his?callsign.

設定故事并沒有就此結(jié)束。事實上，根據(jù)他歡快地講述的這個不起眼的木偶如何成為他的代稱的故事，這只是有趣的開始。

“It?was?an?OC?I?made,”?he?told?Dexerto.?“I’d?take?things?I?was?scared?of?and?then?draw?them?really?hot,?then?that?way?I’m?not?scared?of?them?anymore?and?I?feel?more?attracted?to?them?because?I?thought?that’d?be?a?good?way?to?get?over?things.”

“這是我創(chuàng)作的一個OC（原創(chuàng)角色），"他告訴Dexerto。"我把我害怕的東西拿出來，然后把它們畫得非?；鹄?，然后這樣我就不再害怕它們了反而是迷上它們，我認為這會是一個克服某種東西的好方法?！?/p>

“I?took?a?porcelain?doll?and?turned?it?into?this?hot,?tall?anime?woman?that?had?the?ball?joints?and?I?was?like?‘wow,?not?as?scary?anymore’,?and?that’s?how?the?OC?became?to?be.?Then?I?chose?the?character?to?be?my?VTuber?way?back?when?because?I?was?playing?around?with?VRoid?and?I?just?made?my?OC?in?it,?and?it?just?became?my?VTuber.”

”我把一個瓷娃娃變成這個性感的、高大的、有球狀關節(jié)的二次元美女。我當時想著‘哇，沒那么可怕了’，OC就是這樣來的。然后我選擇這個角色作為我的虛擬形象是因為我當時在玩VRoid，我就在里面制作了我的OC，所以它就成了我的虛擬形象?！?/p>

That?was?a?split-second?decision?made?six?years?ago?now,?and?one?he?couldn’t?be?happier?with.?It?took?a?while?for?him?to?get?used?to,?but?this?is?just?who?he?is?now.

那是六年前一瞬間做出的決定，而他對這個決定感到不能更滿意。這花了他一段時間來適應，不過這就是他現(xiàn)在的樣子。

Through?PorcelainMaid,?he?has?become?one?of?the?most?recognizable?characters?in?the?English?VTubing?scene.?It’s?not?just?his?looks,?but?his?longevity?and?veteran?status?that?makes?him?remarkable.?He’s?seen?as?an?inspiration?for?many?in?the?scene,?and?a?name?often?floated?when?newly-debuted?VTubers?highlight?who?gave?them?a?final?push?down?the?rabbit?hole.

通過瓷人偶，他已經(jīng)成為英文虛擬直播中最引人注目的人之一。不僅僅是因為他的外表，他的“長壽”和老資歷也使他非同尋常。他被視為很多人的啟發(fā)者，當新出道的虛擬主播強調(diào)是誰給了他們?nèi)肟拥摹白詈笠煌啤钡臅r，他的名字經(jīng)常被提及。（Rabbit?hole：指的是愛麗絲夢游仙境中的兔子洞，代指未知的新世界、新領域）

And?while?you?may?think?an?extensive?history?online?might?take?its?toll,?he’s?still?got?pep?in?his?step?for?plenty?of?years?to?come.

雖然你可能認為長時間的線上活動歷史會消磨他（的熱情），但他在之后的很多年里依然充滿了活力。

VTubing?before?it?was?even?a?thing

在虛擬直播還沒出現(xiàn)前就已經(jīng)開始了

Jowol?has?an?extensive?history?of?creating?content?long?before?PorcelainMaid?was?dancing?around?on?our?screens.?He?started?as?many?people?did?in?the?early?days?of?YouTube??—?random?videos?centered?on?his?favorite?games?like?Halo?Reach.

早在瓷人偶在我們的屏幕前跳來跳去之前，Jowol就有很長的內(nèi)容創(chuàng)作歷史了。他和很多人一樣，一開始一他以最喜歡的幾個游戲，例如《光環(huán)：致遠星》為中心制作一些潦草的視頻。

“I?would?do?Halo?Reach?Forge?map?reviews,?do?blogs,?but?as?an?11-year-old?you’re?just?dumb?and?you?don’t?really?know?what?to?say,”?he?laughed.?“It?was?the?worst thing ever.?I’ve?shown?[my?Twitch]?chat?some?of?my?old?videos.”

"我會做《光環(huán)：致遠星》Forge的地圖測評，寫博客。但作為一個11歲的孩子，你只是啞巴，你真的不知道要說什么，"他笑了。"這是有史以來最糟糕的事情了，我給（我的Twitch）chat看過我的一些老視頻。"

But?there?was?something?missing?in?the?content?he?made.?He?loved?chatting?to?people?and just?passing?the?time?with?wacky?stories.?That?was?something?lacking?in?his?YouTube?space,?which?up?to?2016?only?had?a?few?people?in?the?comments?at?any?one?time?despite?him?actively?trying?for?six?years?to?that?point.?There?wasn’t?a?community.

但他這時制作的內(nèi)容中缺少了一些東西。他喜歡和人聊天，講一些古怪的故事打發(fā)時間。這是他的Youtube空間缺乏的東西，直到2016年，盡管他積極嘗試了6年，但任何時候都只有幾個人評論，沒有能夠形成社群。

That?led?PorcelainMaid?to?Twitch,?where?he?would?start?streaming?to?try?and?find?a?group?of?like-minded?people?and?get?some?back-and-forth?flowing.

這使得人偶妹轉(zhuǎn)向了Twitch，他在那里開始了直播，找到了一群志同道合的人并得到了一些雙向交流。

“I?immediately?fell?in?love?with?it?because?there’s?a?community?to?be?had,?people?are?actively?watching?your?stream?from?the?very?beginning?until?the?end,?and?you?get?to?hang?out?with?people,”?he?explained.

他解釋說“我立刻就愛上了它，因為它有一個社群，人們從一開始到結(jié)束都積極地看你的直播，而且你可以和其他人一起玩?！?/p>

“I?don’t?go?outside?much.?Even?if?I?did?have?friends?in?school,?they?weren’t?really?people?that?I?wanted?to?hang?out?with?or?spend?my?time?with.?Being?able?to?do?this?and?spend?time?with?people?who?I?want?to?is?a?joy?to?me.”

”我不怎么出門。即使我在學校里有朋友，他們也不是真的我想要一起玩或者花時間呆在一起的人。能夠和我想要的人一起對我來說是一種快樂?！?/p>

As?he?continued?to?fall?in?love?with?the?medium,?his?goals?started?to?narrow?down.?For?Jowol,?there?was?no?future?beyond?his?love?of?art?and?streaming.?There?wasn’t?anything?else?motivating?enough?to?go?to?college?and?study.

隨著他繼續(xù)愛上這個平臺，他的目標開始聚焦。對于Jowol來說，在他對藝術(shù)和直播的愛之外，沒有任何的未來。沒有任何其他的東西足以激勵他去上大學學習。

While?he?had?flirted?with?the?idea?of?using?his?art?skills?to?become?a?newspaper?cartoonist??—?an?idea?he?laughs?at?now?because?“when?was?the?last?time?you?saw?a?newspaper?floating?around”??—?he?put?all?his?energy?into?becoming?the?best?possible?content?creator.

雖然他曾調(diào)侃過利用他的美術(shù)技能來做一個報紙漫畫家——現(xiàn)在他對這個想法嗤之以鼻，因為”你上一次看到報紙飄來飄去是什么時候了？“——他把它所有的經(jīng)歷都放在成為最好的內(nèi)容創(chuàng)作者上。

That?crossover?led?PorcelainMaid?to?VTubing,?even?if?he?didn’t?really?know?it.

這個十字路口引導人偶妹來到了虛擬直播，即使他當時并不懂它是怎么回事。

Starting?to?get?involved?in?the?wider?communities?through?streaming,?he?fell?into?the?rabbit?hole?in?2017?after?learning?about?VRoid?from?fellow?early?adopter?‘Rosedoodle’.(https://twitter.com/rosedoodles)

他開始通過直播參與到更加廣泛的社區(qū)，在2017年從一個早期的VRoid使用者Rosedoodle那里了解到VRoid之后，他掉進了坑里。

“Back?in?the?day?it?was?just?Kizuna?AI,”?he?said.?“There?wasn’t?that?much?of?a?space?back?then.?It?was?mainly?artists?doing?everything?with?it??—?Hololive?[and?NIJISANJI]?weren’t?much?of?a?thing.

”那時候還只有絆愛“他說，”那時候還沒有那么多的影響力。主要是一些畫師用它來搞一些事情?！?Hololive（和Nijisanji）當時才剛起步。

“We?never?really?saw?ourselves?as?VTubers.?What?we?were?doing?was?VTubing?though.?I?would?call?it?‘a(chǎn)nime?girl-itis’:?when?I?was?young?I?had?a?disease?that?turned?me?into?a?6’1”?anime?girl.?Crazy?how?that?worked?out.”

“我們從未真正把自己看作是虛擬主播，但我們所做的是虛擬直播。我把虛擬直播稱為“二次元美少女炎癥”：當我小的時候我得了一種病，這病讓我變成了一個6英尺1英寸的動漫少女。這也行真的是太瘋狂了?！?/p>

His?story?of?transitioning?from?regular?streaming,?where?he’d?occasionally?show?his?face,?to?VTubing?is?very?common.?There?was?an?equal?amount?of?support?and?confusion.?Back?then?though,?there?wasn’t?a?huge?community?to?lean?on??—?at?least,?that’s?what?Jowol?thought.

他這種從普通的偶爾露臉的直播轉(zhuǎn)移到虛擬直播的故事非常常見。支持的人和困惑的人差不多一樣多。但在那是，并沒有一個很大的圈子可以依靠，至少Jowol是這么認為的。

“Since?I?didn’t?use?the?word?VTuber,?there?was?apparently?a?community?growing?without?me.?There?was?Hololive,?NIJISANJI,?the?indie?scene,?VRChat?people?turning?into?VTubers,?and?I?just?had?no?idea.?I?didn’t?have?an?idea?of?what?a?VTuber?was?until?early?2019?whenraided?me?with?around?300?people?and?I?was?like?‘woah,?what?is?this,?somebody?else?who?does?the?thing?I?do?’

”因為我沒有用VTuber這個詞，顯然在我之外有一個圈子在壯大。有Hololive,?Nijisanji，?個人勢，VRChat用戶轉(zhuǎn)變成VTuber，但我只是不知道。我不知道什么是VTuber，直到2019年初，Zentreya帶著大概300人出團到我的直播間，然后我就“哇！這是什么，有人也在做我在做的事情？”

“It?was?really?cool?finding?out?there?were?other?people?around?me.?I?got?into?the?community?and?found?a?bunch?of?other?VTubers?that?were?starting?out,?and?it?was?enjoyable.”

“發(fā)現(xiàn)還有其他人和我一起真的很棒。我進入了這個圈子，發(fā)現(xiàn)有一群其他的虛擬主播正在起步，這真的很令人高興。”

There?was?a?little?tinge?of?regret?surrounding?the?fact?if?he?hopped?on?earlier,?maybe?he’d?be?bigger?or?have?made?it?mainstream?faster.?But?there’s?a?silver?lining:?“it’s?a?gradual?growth,?and?I?think?that’s?something?a?lot?of?people?can?look?up?to.

有一絲遺憾圍繞著這個事實，如果他早一點進入（圈子），也許他就會稱為更大或者更快成為一線的主播。但也有一線希望：”這是一個逐步成長的過程，我想這是很多人都可以昂首以盼的東西?！?/p>

“A?lot?of?people?nowadays?think?VTubing?is?something?where?you?blow?up?or?you?don’t.?You?can?look?at?my?stats,?point?to?them,?and?say?you?can?gradually?grow?into?a?[successful]?VTuber?if?you?keep?bashing?your?head?into?a?wall?until?it?goes?through.”

”現(xiàn)在有很多人認為虛擬直播是一種要么你突然爆火要么你就不火的東西。你可以看看我的統(tǒng)計數(shù)據(jù)，指著它們，說只要你一直努力直到你沖破障礙，你也可以逐漸成長為一個（成功的）虛擬主播。“

That?point?has?resonated?with?the?community?too.?If?you?were?to?ask?many?upcoming?VTubers?who?are?only?starting?to?break?into?the?wider?consciousness?nowadays,?two?of?the?names?they’d?point?to?as?inspirations?are?the?aforementioned?Zentreya,?and?Jowol.

這一點在圈子中也引起了共鳴。如果你要問很多現(xiàn)在才開始進入更廣泛的意識的新加入的虛擬主播，他們會指出兩個名字作為他們的啟發(fā)者/鼓舞者，就是前面提到的Zentraya和Jowol。

That’s?a?point?of?pride?for?the?veteran?streamer:?“A?lot?of?newer-age?VTubers?would?watch?me?a?lot?of?the?time,?but?never?told?me?they?were?watching?my?stream.?I?only?found?out?when?they?told?me?years?later?saying?‘I?was?lurking?in?your?stream?before?VTubing?was?a?thing?and?I?liked?watching?your?little?model?move?around.’?That’s?really?cool?to?me.

這一點是這位老主播的驕傲之處：“有很多新生代的VTuber們會經(jīng)常來看我，但從不告訴我。我直到幾年后，他們告訴我“我在虛擬直播出現(xiàn)之前我就在你的直播里潛水了，我喜歡看你的小模型動來動去”，我才知道。

“VTubing?is?such?a?wonderful?thing.?I?know?a?lot?of?people?can?look?at?it?with?negative?connotations,?but?VTubing?is?what?you?make?out?of?it.?You’re?just?using?a?mascot?to?represent?yourself?on?stream.

虛擬直播是一件很棒的事情。我知道有很多人對它有負面的看法，但虛擬直播是你“創(chuàng)作”的產(chǎn)物，你只是在直播中用虛擬形象來表達你自己。

“Yeah?I?do?some?light?roleplay??—?I’m?made?out?of?porcelain,?I?have?my?own?lore?video,?and?I?keep?the?lore?very?important?to?my?streams?and?keep?that?immersion?as?much?as?possible?even?if?it’s?light??—?but?it’s?really?cool?to?see?I?made?other?people?become?VTubers?and?they?get?to?enjoy?this?experience?as?well.

“是的，我會做輕度的角色扮演——我是瓷制的，我有我的設定視頻，我把設定放在我的直播中很重要的位置，盡可能地保持這種沉浸感，即使只是輕度的——但是看到我讓其他人成為VTuber，而且他們也能享受這種體驗，這真的很酷。

“It’s?not?only?something?I?do?for?income,?but?it’s?my?only?hobby.?If?I?don’t?have?streaming?in?the?future,?I?don’t?know?what?I’d?be?doing.?I?wouldn’t?have?anything?I?enjoy…?While?I?don’t?recommend?being?as?reckless?as?me,?I?wanted?to?do?this.”

"這不僅是我的謀生手段，而且是我唯一的愛好。如果我在未來不直播了，我不知道我會做什么。我不會有任何我喜歡的東西......雖然我不建議像我這樣魯莽，但我想做這個。"

未完待續(xù)：下一節(jié) 《Smashing?through?gender?norms?沖破性別規(guī)范》