Ma, it has been 3 months since you took your unconditional love away from us - 3, long, motherless months, and we do not feel any better as the heartbreaking and devastating loss is still with us every single day if not every hour, every minute or every second, we maybe into another year, but you are no further away than you were last year

Ma, we completely expected our very first holiday without you to be extremely hard, as it should, because a piece of our family is missing - the spot where you would have sat, ate, laughed, took pictures, and made memories is now empty, just like a piece of our bleeding hearts are empty, so this first holiday without you felt like a million shades darker

Ma, we so wished you were there with us, like we used to go everywhere, visit every place together, we wished to hear your cheerful laugh once again, we wished to see your radiate smile once again, we wished to hold your soft hands once again, we wished to have fun in the pool with you once again, and oh, how we wished for our wishes to come true