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I keep working in a publishing company. My hometown is small, so walking to the job station will not take much time. about 20 minutes.

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Parents

I said I want to lie down in my parents house, but my family does not agree with me. They put the opinion on the table: if I pursue a high degree, I can stay. If not, I must to work.

This is a hard moment, because I do not want to listen to my parents. If I listen, things will be easy like this: find a girlfriend, get married, follow my family's job.

I chose to work in my hometown.

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Let us talk about pursuing a high degree then going back to work. I failed the graduate student exam twice right now, because there is nothing that can stop math and computer science from developing. I can read math books for a little time in a day, and that is not enough to pass a huge test. My problem is need more time. so as computers science. The point is that will the world give me more time? The more time I take, the more older my parents. I wish one day my parents could take care of themselves, then I can fly.

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I waste lots of time thinking about what does the world looks like. Everything I know is fake. There is no truth in this world, and this is why I spent so much time getting the answer.

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Work

Back to work, even though I am a workman now, I still try to study math & computer science. In work time, my tasks are easy for me. just upload videos, design posts, edit photo backgrounds etc. I fall in asleep a lot on workdays, and my group leader kicked my head many times. I do not care about salary just keeping sleeping. I think our relationship is as good as so far. Yes, I think so.

at work is not make me good, I want to get a better job, so I upload my resume in job search website. There were oceanal resumes I delivered to Shanghai, Hangzhou, but not one got an interview. this is ok, I will not give up so easily.

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As you can see, I was lost in the big world, I knew. I think this hard time will not be long, because I am open to studying. so the destiny stands by me.

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The lockdown is coming, I have to stay at home. My job does not support remotes, so I refuse all emails or chats with my coworkers.

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Study

During this time, I do not sleep well. Sometimes, I push so hard to stand up all night. It is not easy to fall asleep at night. so just give up to sleeping. When I have a headache I know that message is given to me to sleep, but I cannot relax in bed. This is the truth: standing up at the night makes my head fresh. so I follow the my body, study at night and sleep during the day.

There is one more thing I want to talk about studying. All of the knowledge I have to learn for a job was from the Internet. I bagged my parents to bought a iPad for me, so all ebooks can store in there waiting for me to watch. a notebook computer, I am using right now, also an important tool to learn free video lessons. I must add one thing: plus a wifi networking.

Game?

My xbox does not support 4K pictures, so I send to Microsoft to repair. but I do not imagine that my hometown was suddenly lockdowned. This is why I will not receive my console in a few days. That is too sad to type you this. I had cried in the bathroom, a lot of movement in the morning, and the toilet really did not like me anymore. I just keep grabbing him. That will make me feel better.

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All I have is bought from my family, like this computer writing now. It can load many games in Epic game stores. Thanks Epic game again. I played inside, limbo, brothers - a tale of two sons.

I used to play league of legends, and give up for some reasons which I played badly to get a silver rank :( or bad networking or teamer's points(who talks somebody's fault who is right). I am paying dota2 as a noob right now. My notebook computer is done well, and the ping is just 80ms.

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The most important thing is you can communicate with foreign people, and learn some nice words if you are doing bad. this not often I premise, I will not tell my alley all I want is to learn english. I will tell the team players how bad thing they did.

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End

There are some bits of advice I wish I had known:?

• Learn?science networking skill as soon as you can

• Learn?math and english, and do not care others

• Stand?by your family, try your best

• Does not matter you?listen or do not listen your family, follow the truth all you know

• Read?easy books

• Watch?foreign movies, tv show

• Think?carefully not hard

• Darkness does not only exist in the?most hidden corners

• The manual tear car turn left/right must switch to none tear

• Talk?is cheap, show me data