純碎片。

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大概一個月前聽Yuvol Harari關(guān)于AI的演講，提到了大意人類即將第一次創(chuàng)造出'an?inorganic life form'，忽然覺著，Meteion這個故事多少有點像16年微軟在推上試驗過的chatbot Tay。囧橄欖怎么總結(jié)來著，24小時之內(nèi)從我愛人類我愛貓貓狗狗被網(wǎng)民喂成了Hitler是對的我支持holocaust.

而Harari提到的去年被谷歌開掉也要堅稱他被派測試的AI已經(jīng)是sentient being，想要“保護(hù)”這個AI的工程師Blake Lemoine...

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特意截圖給親友槽過，文本差異到這種程度的時候基本也沒什么可聊的了。

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我之前對英版Zenos的理解錯了嗎？倒不是，但是也不完全。romanticism是他的美學(xué)體現(xiàn)，nihilism也確實是他的價值觀。但這更多是基于他第一段人生的理解。 I've always felt like there's something amiss.?It fails to explain why Elidibus and Hythlodaeus were scared of him, or why he was utterly unfazed by the presence of the Endsinger. So when I finally found him again in the quote from Norman Brown's book, it almost felt like the final piece of the puzzle falling into place.?

"Journeys end in lovers meeting." And it ended as such for the viator. But?I was wrong when I said that love was what brought salvation to his soul... He doesn't need salvation. There is practically nothing, nothing in this world that he still needs. Nothing that?I, or anyone could possibly offer him that he still needs. Yet, he alone possesses desires that are true to himself. Desires untainted by fears, desires that unite the conscious with the unconscious mind. He has become more than the romantic rebel, more than a nihilistic mortal, and not the Faustian man. He has become the unrepressed man envisioned by Brown, the sovereign man by Bataille. He does not need the platonic love of finding completeness in another, for he is complete in himself. And he alone gives the love that is complete and free.

And I am fully aware that to acknowledge his completeness is to face my own insignificance. That, is something none of us could bear to face, Becker would argue. And even if Zenos was to do nothing, bring no destruction at all, by being the unrepressed man he is already a threat to all human cultures and societies, as one that lives free from the illusions that are essential to our survival.

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去看Bataille是因為想了解對la demesure的探討，看Becker是因為the fear of death as a primary drive for human behaviors is something I've always had on my mind，比如看漢密爾頓留下最深印象的歌詞一直是那句 I imagine death so much it feels more like a memory... 看Brown是因為Becker的書里引用的部分——又發(fā)現(xiàn)Brown還曾給予Bataille的the Accursed Share/La Part Maudite高度評價。讓我稍微有點懷疑the unrepressed man的概念大約也受到了sovereign man的啟發(fā)。

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Becker對于Brown這個結(jié)論直接的質(zhì)疑就是guilt的來源。在Becker看來guilt不只是童年的產(chǎn)物，有死之人生于世，guilt源于對mortality的awareness，自然無從消解，如影隨形，一切社會型組織俱是吸收與排解guilt的產(chǎn)物。所以the unrepressed man是必然不可能達(dá)到的狀態(tài)。故而唯一能夠eliminate guilt的方法也只有字面意義上的immortality.

So here we have it, resurrection according to Brown, immortality according to Becker, the complete unrepressed man. This is why his resurrection is vital. He has conquer death in the way that no one else has ever did, not even the ancients. The ancients, though immortal in a way, were never free from their cultural illusions.

以前看到過一個油管up發(fā)過較長的角色解析，關(guān)于弒父的情節(jié)，他解釋為對帝國的仇恨，which is?directly contradicted by the codex we obtained in game. Yet if viewed in the light of his resurrection?as the unrepressed man, the codex would make sense. He was already free from all his bondage. He did not need to rebel against Varis for his freedom anymore.

Aristotle said "He who is unable to live in society, or who has no need because he is sufficient for himself, must be either a beast or a god.?Politics?bk. 1, 1253a 27–9"?

Oh but he is both. And he knows it better than anyone.

The world is no more than an oyster to him. One that he could toy with however he desires, or just cast aside since he doesn't care.

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There was always something that I couldn't quite put my fingers on.?Becker's account of death denial was what I needed to make everything makes perfect sense now. Why Zodiark had to stay in place, why the ancients had to fall. What was it that Hydaelyn was trying to preserve. 說到dynamis，可能前面提過情感的影響所以很多人直接給它喊成情感之力，但其實不然。它由情感驅(qū)動，但并不是情感本身（否則要支配情感還不容易。中譯“潛能量”這個名字確實是相當(dāng)點明主題的?；乜翠浵?，Venat:

"In spite of...or perhaps because of this, I choose to believe. In mankind's potential. In his ability to find a way forward."

那么最后的花海也就有了真正的解釋。

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同樣我也終于能理解Pechorin了，不僅僅是文學(xué)意義上的'superfluous man.'

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如雪萊悼念濟(jì)慈的Adonais ：

Peace, peace! he is not dead, he doth not sleep,

? ? ? He hath awaken'd from the dream of life;

? ? ? 'Tis we, who lost in stormy visions, keep

? ? ? With phantoms an unprofitable strife,

? ? ? And in mad trance, strike with our spirit's knife

? ? ? Invulnerable nothings. We decay

? ? ? Like corpses in a charnel; fear and grief

? ? ? Convulse us and consume us day by day,

And cold hopes swarm like worms within our living clay.

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Why there is no going back? No turning back the clock? Because we already know that the past is a lie. The fragility of the veil weighs heavy on all of our minds, too heavy to last for any good. Secretary Mayor Pete always said that there's no honest politics centered around the word "again". Now the reasoning is clear as day. There is no making something great again. There's no shutting down the global economy, no cutting off immigration, no turning off all the social media or AI. We will never really go back to the "simpler times." As much as Freud pointed all of our nerotics back to our childhoods, he would not advocate going back to infantile innocence. It is simply impossible. The curtains have fallen and we have seen the abyss. No matter how hard we shut our eyes or turn our backs on it we already know the monster is right there. Sing all the mantras in the world and it would not eradicate the fear and anxiety in our minds. The old lies cannot protect us anymore. Such is the tragedy of the ancients. They cried out to go back to the times 'when the star was a font of love, and we knew naught but bliss!'

Alas, the star never loved them. The star does not care, and does not answer. They suffocated themselves within the old lie, and they were doomed to fail.

一方面來說，希斯拉德順應(yīng)社會，不打破這一偽相的生活方式確實是virtuous的，另一方面這也注定了，在一切走到末路，偽相被撕裂的盡頭，他只能成為犧牲品。而赫爾墨斯對小黑鳥說，作為人類我會留下來反抗，也是真誠而勇敢的。Of the four ancients in Elpis, Emet-Selch is actually, the one of the herd. Preoccupied with 'serious business' of his world, content, even obsessed with the illusion of his people. It is surely a sentiment that all mortals could relate to, no doubt, which is precisely the point.

So in a way, Venat does exhibit traits of the Ubermensch. She knew it was essential to tear down the old lies that suffocated any potential for a new world. On the other hand, she was also waiting for one. She did not dictate a new meaning for human. she was paving the way for such a person, that would finally lead the world out of the old broken lies of the ancient world.

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It also explains why G'raha Tia's obsession with heroism and legacy was always more than a bit off-putting to me. Despite not having the words to express this feeling, I was vaguely aware of the fact that it was an illusion. A benevolent one, most would argue and I agree. But an illusion nonetheless.?

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And?I don't think of?Fandaniel and the Endsinger as nihilists. At least, not true enough for me. A true nihilistic should see the futility of imposing their will upon the others as well as the meaninglessness of seeking a perpetual happiness, let alone a universal one to rid all existence of suffering. That is why Zenos does not run around trying to convince people of his beliefs. The only time Julus asks, he does answer the question, but that answer almost sinks Julus directly into an abyss of despair. Why? Because he is?the truly nihilistic unrepressed man. His mere existence is a challenge to all that is fundamental to human societies. He exposes us for what we truly are, feeble, insignificant creatures that will inevitably die, no matter how hard we fool ourselves. And the fact that we try so hard at weaving the myths of heroism, of moralities and cultural identities, is but another crude truth that we?are such cowards at our core that we cannot even face our true conditions. We have to rely on these illusions to survive.

Had Alphinaud not rushed to give Jullus a new purpose on the spot, we should all know how it would have ended.

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And what truth would some have Venat reveal?to the ancients, already plagued and destroyed by the despair brought by the Final Days? That all that they've ever held dear, all that they've considered the unshakable truth of their existence, is but a lie, a shattered dream, a fool's delusion? That all lives, even all the stars must die, that their struggle would only be to stall the inevitable??

Yeah, see how that would work out.

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That sure is a distinction there. Venat would not?add to their despair. While Zenos doesn't give a damn about fcking you with the truth.

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What am I, but a branch, still deep in the?mines of Salzburg.