【騰訊文檔】：https://docs.qq.com/doc/DUndudkFGeVVBSklS

原標(biāo)題：PorcelainMaid overcame fears with VTubing, thanks to a marionette doll

原鏈接：https://twitter.com/dvckyVT/status/1645714303331479552?s=20

原作者：Ducky https://twitter.com/dvckyVT

Smashing?through?gender?norms

沖破性別規(guī)范

VTubing?does?often?get?boiled?down?into?a?gendered?game.?People?look?at?the?overwhelmin success?of?women?in?the?field,?and?a?comment?about?how?it’s?all?eye?candy?and?no substance?isn’t?far?from?that?gaze.

VTubing確實(shí)經(jīng)常被歸結(jié)為一種性別游戲。人們看著女性在這個(gè)領(lǐng)域取得的壓倒性的成功，隨之而來(lái)的還有關(guān)于它是如何只有視覺(jué)效果而沒(méi)有實(shí)質(zhì)內(nèi)容的評(píng)論。

PorcelainMaid?knows?this?plight?more?than?many?other?VTubers.?His?male?voice?does?cut through?the?visuals?of?his?model.?As?much?as?it?shouldn’t?be?a?point?of?contention,?it?does lead?to?transphobic?comments?(something?he?takes?great?pride?in?quashing?whenever?they?crop up).

人偶妹比其他許多虛擬主播更了解這種困境。他的男性聲音確實(shí)他的皮套形成了反差。盡管這不應(yīng)該成為爭(zhēng)論的焦點(diǎn)，但它確實(shí)導(dǎo)致了反變性人的評(píng)論（每當(dāng)這些評(píng)論出現(xiàn)時(shí)，他都會(huì)非常自豪地予以制止）。

“If?you?come?into?my?stream?and?try?to?say?gross?things,?it’s?easy?to?take?it?and?turn?it?against?them?and?use?it?for?my?own?content,”?he?laughed.

“如果你來(lái)我的直播上嘗試說(shuō)蠢話(huà)，應(yīng)對(duì)它并把它利用為我的直播內(nèi)容是很容易的，”他笑道。

"Why?are?you?a?man?using?a?female?model!?"Roasting?turned?wholesome,?I'm?kinda proud?of?this.

—?Jowol?|?Marionette?VTuber?(@PorcelainMaid)

“為什么你一個(gè)男的用女皮？”回懟并把他們教育得更健全，我還挺驕傲的。

https://twitter.com/PorcelainMaid/status/1584987067758432256

“It’s?not?a?traditionally?male?role?for?a?very?masculine?person?to?be?inside?a?feminine?body.?It says?no?to?gender?norms?which?is?what?I?really?like,?and?I?like?that?I?can?be?comfortable?with?myself?and?just?be?more?open?with?my?sexuality??—?more?expressive."

一個(gè)很男性化的人在一個(gè)女性化的身體里，這不是一個(gè)傳統(tǒng)的男性角色。我很喜歡它對(duì)性別規(guī)范說(shuō)不，而且我很喜歡我可以感到很自在并對(duì)自己的性取向更加開(kāi)放——更有表現(xiàn)力?！?/p>

“I’ve?gotten?a?lot?of?DMs?from?people?saying?‘you?made?me?feel?comfortable?with?my?voice.’ Maybe?it’s?someone?who?is?trans... maybe?it's just someone?plain uncomfortable?and? they're?using a model?that is different from one someone would usually perceive [with their voice].

"我收到了很多人的私信，說(shuō)'你讓我接受了自己的聲音'。也許這是一個(gè)變性人......也許這只是一個(gè)普通的、不自信的、用著會(huì)被人認(rèn)為是不貼聲音的皮套的人。

“They?don’t?have?to?take?sh*t?from?people?because?they?can?look?to?me?and?say?‘if?Jowol?can?do?it,?I?can?too.’”

“他們不需要再在意其他人，因?yàn)樗麄兛梢钥粗?，然后說(shuō)‘如果Jowol可以，那我也可以’"

On?top?of?that,?as?women?started?thriving?online,?male?VTubers?struggled?to?take?flight?until the?Luxiem?branch?of?NIJISANJI?EN?exploded?onto?the?scene.?From?the?early?days,?Jowol noted it?was?only?a?natural?reaction?to?feel?a?little?jealous.

除此之外，隨著女性主播開(kāi)始在網(wǎng)絡(luò)上蓬勃發(fā)展，男性VTubers一直在努力追趕，直到NIJISANJI?EN的Luxiem分部在現(xiàn)在爆火。從早期開(kāi)始，Jowol指出，感到有點(diǎn)嫉妒是很自然的反應(yīng)。

“When?I?started,?I?had?insecurities?about?‘do?people?not?want?to?watch?me?because?I’m?a?man'",he?mused.?“But?I?realized?no,?that?wasn’t?a?thing,?and?even?if?it?was,?why?would?I?care? Those?aren’t?the?people?who?are?going?to?be?watching?you?in?the?first?place.

“我剛開(kāi)始直播的時(shí)候，我會(huì)因?yàn)椤藗儠?huì)因?yàn)槲沂悄芯筒幌肟次覇幔俊话病?，他喃喃自語(yǔ)，“但我意識(shí)到不對(duì)，為什么我要在意？那些人本來(lái)就不是你的受眾?！?/p>

“I?don’t?want?to?use?the?word?‘male?VTuber’?to?describe?myself.?Yeah?I’m?a?man?and?I?use?a Vtuber?model,?that’s?it.?When?you?start?using?gendered?terms,?you?start?creating?a?divide between yourself?and?other?people?and?that?seems?really?lame?to?do.

“我不想用'男性VTuber'這個(gè)詞來(lái)形容自己。是的，我是一個(gè)男人，我使用VTuber模型，僅此而已。當(dāng)你開(kāi)始使用性別化的術(shù)語(yǔ)時(shí)，你就開(kāi)始在你自己和其他人之間制造一個(gè)，這樣做好像很無(wú)聊?！?/p>

“You?have?to?just?stream,?and?find?your?niche.”

“你只管直播，然后找到你的一席之地”

VTubing,?as?a?medium,?is?a?powerful?tool?for?expression.?There?is?really?nowhere?to?be?bound?by?the?traditional?gender?norms?of?society.?You?can?look?how?you?want,?and?if?you?want?to?go?the?extra?mile?with?a?voice?changer,?sound?that?way?too. It's why there's a massive trans community.(https://www.dexerto.com/entertainment/vtubing-trans-creators-explore-gender-identity-safely-2008421/)

虛擬直播作為一種媒介是一種強(qiáng)大的表達(dá)工具。真的沒(méi)有地方可以被社會(huì)的傳統(tǒng)性別規(guī)范所約束。你可以擁有你想要的模樣，如果你想用變聲器再進(jìn)一步，也完全可以。這就是為什么這里有這么大的變性人群體。

Fans?might?have?preferences?in?what?they?want?to?watch,?and?that’s?something?Jowol acknowledges:?“When?you?want?to?watch?somebody?who?is?male-presenting with a deeper? voice,?because?that’s?your?preference,?I?can?understand?you putting?on?a?label.

粉絲們可能對(duì)他們想看的東西有偏好，這一點(diǎn)Jowol也承認(rèn)：?"當(dāng)你想看一個(gè)表現(xiàn)為男性的，聲音比較低沉的人，因?yàn)檫@是你的偏好，我可以理解你在貼標(biāo)簽。"

“But?when?you’re?a?VTuber?and?you’re?putting?that?on?yourself…?it’s?not?as?appealing?to?me?personally.?I?don’t?want?to?define?myself?as?a?male?VTuber.?I?am?Jowol,?a?sexy?man?trapped?inside?of?a?doll.?I?want?to?be?open?to?everyone.”

"但是，當(dāng)你是一個(gè)虛擬主播，你把它（標(biāo)簽）放在自己身上......這對(duì)我個(gè)人來(lái)說(shuō)并不那么吸引人。我不想把自己定義為一個(gè)男性VTuber。我是Jowol，一個(gè)被困在娃娃里的性感男人。我想對(duì)所有人開(kāi)放。"

It’s?an?awkward?“hill?to?die?on”?in?Jowol’s?words,?especially?when?other?streaming?spaces?are?heavily?dominated?by?men.?And?for?all?the?praise?NIJISANJI’s?Luxiem,?as?well?as,?get?for giving?a?platform?for?male?VTubers,?it?still?proliferates?a?divide?of?the?VTubing?audience.

用Jowol的話(huà)說(shuō)，這是一個(gè)尷尬的?"死亡之山"，特別是當(dāng)其他直播領(lǐng)域被男性嚴(yán)重支配的時(shí)候。而對(duì)于NIJISANJI的Luxiem，Noctyx 以及Hololive的?STARTS?企劃，因?yàn)榻o男性VTubers提供了一個(gè)平臺(tái)而得到的所有贊譽(yù)，他們?nèi)匀粩U(kuò)大了虛擬直播觀眾之間的隔閡。

“I?can?understand?why?companies?would?make?them?gendered,?but?I?really?enjoy?how NIJISANJI has?been?doing?it?recently?where?they?will?make?mixed-gender? Vtuber groups [in?ILUNA?and?XSOLEIL].

"我可以理解為什么公司會(huì)讓他們有性別之分，但我真的很喜歡NIJISANJI最近的做法，他們會(huì)推出混合性別的VTuber組合（ILUNA和XSOLEIL）。

“They’re?only?making?the?divide?worse?when?they?separate?teams?of?VTubers?by?gender.?I think we should specify on it less. We shouldn't look into it too deep. Let Vtubers be Vtubers, don't look at the gender, and let them stream."

"他們按性別劃分虛擬主播的團(tuán)隊(duì)，只會(huì)讓隔閡更加寬。我認(rèn)為我們應(yīng)該少區(qū)分它（性別）。我們也不應(yīng)該看得太深，虛擬主播就是虛擬主播，不要在意性別，讓他們直播就好。"

性取向不是壞事情你這個(gè)笨蛋。

虛擬主播是因?yàn)橐曈X(jué)設(shè)計(jì)而繁榮的媒介。通過(guò)角色設(shè)計(jì)表達(dá)性取向是一個(gè)在你的舒適區(qū)內(nèi)表達(dá)你自己的一個(gè)絕好的方法。

只是不合你的喜好而已，不代表你應(yīng)該反對(duì)其他人。

Keeping?motivated?after?seven?years

七年之后還保持活躍

For?someone?who?has?been?streaming?for?seven?years?and?making?videos?for?even?longer, PorcelainMaid?is?rather?chipper.?There’s?a?bit?of?a?stereotype?about?streamers?being?jaded after?chipping?away?at?the?craft?for?years.?He’s?far?from?that?though.

對(duì)于一個(gè)已經(jīng)做了7年直播并制作了更長(zhǎng)時(shí)間視頻的人來(lái)說(shuō)，人偶妹是相當(dāng)積極且快樂(lè)的。有一種刻板印象認(rèn)為，主播在多年的直播過(guò)程中會(huì)感到厭倦。但他遠(yuǎn)非如此。

He’s?competitive?at?heart,?and?seeing?the?VTubing?space?continuing?to?grow?around?him invigorates?his?spirit?to?keep?pushing?the?next?frontier.

他的內(nèi)心充滿(mǎn)了斗志，看到虛擬直播領(lǐng)域在他周?chē)^續(xù)發(fā)展，他的精神也隨之振奮起來(lái)，繼續(xù)推動(dòng)下一個(gè)領(lǐng)域的發(fā)展。

“You’re?always?happy?with?your?community?and?you’re?happy?with?what?you?have,”?he reflected,?“You?always?stay?grateful?and?humble.?But?at?the?same?time,?you’re?never?satisfied?with?where?you’re?at,?because?there’s?always?someone?above?you.?That?sounds?a?bit competitive,?but?it’s?in?the?nicest?way.”

"你要總是對(duì)你的社群感到滿(mǎn)足，你對(duì)你所擁有的東西感到滿(mǎn)足，"他反思道,"你要總是保持感激和謙虛。但與此同時(shí)，你永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)滿(mǎn)足于你所處的位置，因?yàn)榭傆腥嗽谀阒?。這聽(tīng)起來(lái)有點(diǎn)競(jìng)爭(zhēng)性，但這是最美好的方式。"

The?joy?he?has?captured?through?VTubing?and?his?little?“roleplay”?(not?too?much,?though) hasn't?faded?yet.?And?as?long?as?that?spark?stays?alive,?there’s?no?reason?to?think?about leaving.

他通過(guò)虛擬直播和他的小?"角色扮演"（雖然不是太多）捕捉到的快樂(lè)還沒(méi)有消退。而只要這星星之火還在燃燒，就沒(méi)有理由考慮離開(kāi)。

“I?wouldn’t?be?where?I’m?at?right?now?without?VTubing.?I’d?be?stuck,?at?a?dead?end,?and depressed.?In?college?I?was?not?having?a?good?time.?Streaming?was?my?only?joy,?and?without that,?I?can’t?imagine?where?I’d?be."

"如果沒(méi)有虛擬直播，我不會(huì)有現(xiàn)在的我。我就會(huì)被困在一個(gè)死胡同里，而且很沮喪。在大學(xué)里，我過(guò)得并不開(kāi)心。直播是我唯一的樂(lè)趣，沒(méi)有它，我無(wú)法想象我會(huì)在哪里。”

“This?is?the?one?thing?in?my?life?I?wake?up?for,?and?it?keeps?me?up?every?day.?It?gives?me something?to do."

"這就是我人生中為之醒來(lái)事情，它讓我每天保持積極。它讓我有事可做?！?/p>

“I?just?want?to?keep?growing.?I?want?to?feel?where?I?can?comfortably?be?at?the?same?level?as my? friends?without having any inferiority complexes. I just want to keep stream and keep growing to the best of my ability and? to keep growing my community to spend more time with?more lovely?people.”

"我只想繼續(xù)成長(zhǎng)。我希望能感覺(jué)到我可以舒適地與我的朋友們處于同一水平而不產(chǎn)生任何自卑感。我只想在我的能力范圍內(nèi)一直直播一直成長(zhǎng)，不斷地壯大我的社區(qū)，與更多可愛(ài)的人一起度過(guò)更多的時(shí)間。"