Dear Eva, 14th April.

It will be almost a month since you wrote me, and you have possibly forgotten your state of mind (I doubt it though). You seem the same as always and being you hate every minute of it.

Don't!

Learn to say " *uck you" to the world every once in a while. You have every right to just stop, thinking,

worrying, looking over your shoulder, wondering, doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out,

struggling, grasping, confusing, itching, scratching, mumbling,

bumbling, grumbling, humbling,

stumbling, rumbling, rambling,

numbling, gambling, tumbling,

scrumbling, scrambling, hitching,

hatching, bitching, moaning, groaning, honing,

boning, horse-shitting hair-splitting,

nit-picking, piss-trickling, nose-sticking,

ass-gouging, eyeball-poking, finger pointing,

alleyway-sneaking, long waiting, small stepping,

evil-eyeing, back scratching, searching,

perching, besmirching,

grinding, grinding, grinding away at yourself.

Stop it and just DO.