Today is my 50th birthday

Ma, today is my 50th birthday, where you are not here with me for the very first time in my entire existence sadly, but today is also the anniversary of the first gift and the greatest present I could ever receive on this exact day 50 years ago — my life. It was the day our journey began as I became your darling daughter and the luckiest girl in the whole world

Ma, you probably did not realise in that moment you became so much more than a Ma to me as you became my superhero, my guiding light, and my inspiration, and I looked up everything about you. I am forever deeply touched and grateful for your unconditional love, your unwavering support, and your devotion in being the best Ma any child could ask for

Ma, I miss you terribly on my birthday, just like I have been doing each and every day, and today is just another reminder you are gone - a day to be celebrated is now a day of great sadness as I am grieving on my birthday because you who gave birth to me is no longer here, and I am grieving the precious memories we had together from the past 49 years

Ma, on my birthday, the only present I want is to have you right back here with me, but sad to say that no amount of wishes today can make that happen. Birthdays before you left me were about counting the candles on the birthday cake, but birthdays after your sad passing I will be counting how many times without you - today is the number one, the very first one

Ma, without you, celebrating my 50th birthday just not seem right, but if I have to celebrate I will celebrate this day we met, I will celebrate that on this very day, I met you, naturally it is easy to celebrate you, so when I blow out my candles, instead of making a wish, I will be celebrating the moment you and I met - my life will be forever blessed because of that fact